Thursday, December 31, 2020

Damp Chilly Breezy Brisk Dawn Walk

 The insides of my pockets are getting cold, oh

Something fierce

something fiercer

Colliding with your finiteness

colliding with your infiniteness.

I was born to be on a road,

skipping gravel,

2 to 10 toes,

gripping travel

firmly on the Earth surface.

Don't stop, my mind, from racing out of the Cosmos.





Wednesday, December 30, 2020

 

දෙ   දෙ   නා   පෙ   ර   දා






Number Order Puzzle

 thousand, quadrillion

billion

octillion, decillion

hundred, thousand, quadrillion, decillion

0, 1, 3, 5, 7, 8, 9, 10, 11, 12, 13, 14, 15, 16, 17, 18, 19, 20, 70, 80, 90, hundred, sextillion, septillion, decillion

4, 5, 14, 15, 40, 50

8, 18, 80

3, 8, 13, 18, 30, 80, hundred, thousand

5, 6, 8, 9, 13, 15, 16, 18, 19, 30, 50, 80, million, billion, trillion, quadrillion, quintillion, sextillion, septillion, octillion, nonillion, decillion

-

-

11, 12, million, billion, trillion, quadrillion, quintillion, sextillion, septillion, octillion, nonillion, decillion

million

7, 9, 10, 11, 13, 14, 15, 16, 17, 18, 19, 20, thousand, million, billion, trillion, quadrillion, quintillion, sextillion, septillion, octillion, nonillion, decillion

0, 1, 2, 4, 14, 40, thousand, million, billion, trillion, quadrillion, quintillion, sextillion, septillion, octillion, nonillion, decillion

septillion

quadrillion, quintillion

0, 3, 4, 30, 40, hundred, trillion, quadrillion

6, 7, 16, 17, 60, 70, thousand, sextillion, septillion

2, 3, 8, 10, 12, 13, 14, 15, 16, 17, 18, 19, 20, 30, 40, 50, 60, 70, 80, 90, thousand, quintillion, sextillion, septillion, octillion

4, 14, hundred, thousand, quadrillion, quintillion

5, 7, 11, 12

2, 12, 20

6, 16, 60, sextillion

20, 30, 40, 50, 60, 70, 80, 90

0








 I am not your blue Joseph

                                              Appraisal Estrangement Derangement Arrangements Detection Depiction Dedication




Steady Waffle

Tuesday, December 29, 2020

 Talk thru sunset

The blue interior eyes black core neck bites and feeling the colorist movement thru veins capillaries red noses light pulses cannot see windows and hidden people

my mom's washing dishes

i ate two hersey kisses

we are about to china beach season 2 episode 5, women in white

slick like carcinogen evening or oil on driveways [Downsizing tran] and porches, vietnamese across lawns and suburb roads without sidewalks, oaks taller than ten people

breathing too deeply to be outside and unaware of the air

No dog plays no throws

no going to buy fireworks a quarter mile away from wooden cask fire laden burdened people

questions to and fro

the china beach theme plays on the looping menu screen

" the mirror of my mind "

reflections of . . 

time . . . .


look back

feel specks of light inside going foeveer . . . the end


Digestion Profit Rank

4 thousand

dry on your cheek

skillessly


brittania season 2 episode 7 lake of tears butterfly


moving vehicle violences to the psyche and soul of Land

,  Lamb


Reflections of Eternity


Hi



Monday, December 28, 2020

Watching a bit of Krisha, she said she's moving to Austin, and I just saw her drink from a wine bottle in the bathroom

i love people who exist

it's very difficult to exist


life is so cool, even when I knew I never had one


i love them so much

o my god, they're so beautiful


i get tipsy ,  saint brendan's irish cream

i almost want to throw up, when i often eat too much

then move around and bend over

the sun almost goes down

and i need the internet


Krisha just dropped the Turkey


First Reformed was on earlier, bfore we wnt to Austin today

i got excited to see it

it comes on at 7, i set it to record


i just replied to Aaron

he texted a link to the Texas Woodwooking Festival, in April

i asked if he is going to go


I am happy

i think


Sleep Craft


I am still asleep 

okay

i am still asleep 




 A band performs, it's Satan's Power

on live morning networks

song: Comfort and Joy


" Leave us,

corovorviurs.

Leave us,

cornonrviores.

Oh the sunny day will never come back today.

Oh you will never know how we hurt ourselves.

Satan begone, fill our shoes with stockings.  "


 Footage of Never

Skiing with Never

Directions from elsewhere:
Since I-70 is the most traveled route, travelers on other routes must be in it for the scenery. We’d advise you to follow your nav system a bit, and your heart more.


Poem Fail

Heart explodes and stops


Truncated Belch

Shared Love


jjj   j


Smooth Chicken Breakfast

Littles pillow.


" i'm a lonely german

a lonely german from

Prague. "


gimme something to say

later in the days


Give them to you


https://open.spotify.com/track/7H0ya83CMmgFcOhw0UB6ow


Space Song - Beach House




Saturday, December 26, 2020

Search History

 Me and the Hives and Benedict Wong stand in the Sam's Club gas station parking lot at Southpark Meadows looking at the Great Conjunction of 2020, and darkness falls. 



Bobby Lee and Santo do a 3 way dick suck as the internet wires crackle harmlessly 

Hypnotically

Loudly our screams cherish children and warmly our hearts overheat.

We melt likely homely candles forgotten

No one ever home anymore 

No need to hope anymore 

Drinking till blurrs became blurry

Memories forget themselves 

All is a whirl

And it whirls

And is never still 

And we are never us anymore 

You and I are everything 

So what is the same?

No needs

No nothing 

At All.


" You Take You with You ...

You Are Always with You "

al Anon

Nar anon

" From the Bottom of My Happy Heart "

sleep with friends

eternal rest

don't try anymore

if i ever was

anyone

i was

They save us

i sing 'Em

it's okay

the end . . . .


Klaus is really good.

special


Rudy Jules

Julianna tito niece

bad friend


hugs you

says sorry

and i'm here to help

walks thru

faed to yellow



 career hyphen harpoon

hello periphery

gremlin goblin gobble ream freak forget

hey, music terror begone creamate bushes goon being gone

Going home night toodle, muck neptune tree munch weeble velo drone velcro person

Venus quacks up the rest of the yolo dumb washers track the box crumb bacon crackers nubby dream tastes bad for loving human leaf hucksters 

Mars leaves remember forever. No one makes up the young yellow Hell of property people.

Saturn prostate prostrate growing green blue fuzz on the rapist sheets of frozen steaks 50 feet maneuvering lost little feelings inside of greg no one, at home below and waking up towards dear time.

Earth daemons instill juice very gay and gray jump onto umbrella sex careening Jericho left the last prophet to Jerusalem sucking  up the desert

pluto weiners dose the light

grains

popping

hype

to seem

flex heme

the Park at 4:30

You begin him and she goes 

Put the 2nd on your schedule, or 2 days, and take them over there, a 15 year old person, 49 year old, pants, diapers, towels, cushions, gas, tires

open doors, 69 degree rooms, zero light, zero dark

3rd left

10 minutes,

leave again

bye,

hi, i'm still back here

ok, hello, nice

see ya. i see ya.











Wednesday, December 23, 2020

Going to Costco on Christmas Eve Eve

i've been watching bad friends. I watched the new ones the past few weeks, and a couple days ago i started at episode 1 and just finished 3.

they're pretty funny.


my mom bought 10 things

2 pair of eddie bauer lounge pants

i'm wearing the black

they're pretty nice


i drank half the bottle of malbec

it's pretty good


i'm listening to episode 4

bobby lee's dead dad, crying mother

photographs and hysterical laughing


we've had lots of snacks and candy

we saw doug, nat, bridge and ed before costco

it went pretty well


i ate tamales and chili and onion

and half a mini rum cake

my face is pretty fat

and the rest of me


that was yesterday. this morning in bed i asked myself what's today? maybe i asked what day is it? oh ya, it's christmas eve

i'm gonna watch the rest of gmm now

we've got some cooking to do today


i'm pretty okay

kinda obsessed with goodnightmoonasmr, just posted a doctor roleplay, she is kinda unbelievably beautiful

i saw the 3 episodes of Digital Water Reviews by candace carrizales, HUNANPENGUIN.

she's pretty ,  awesome

she requested suggestions for digital water to review

i wanted to find a video to suggest, i looked at the gungan city scene in star wars episode 1, but there's not much digital water.

i watched some shenmue 3 videos, i don't think i will suggest anything

it's easy christmass

i'll make eggnog in a bit

and drink the rest of the rum


sleep early

no one else

text friend

eat . . .

watch tv, movies, internet, youtube

go outside

type words

think sing




Tuesday, December 22, 2020

Alternate Mixer by Nap Eyes

 

it's not easy to understand what it is that makes me feel this way

it's hard to know why i think, feel or do anything



Saturday, December 19, 2020

 Hello, this morning derails like a railroad going 40 miles per hour. I sat on every chair in my house for long enough to die and roll out. I ate 4.25 biscuits made of wheat, ground up, from the floor, where my toes dwell, like denizens of dirt and flesh. However we show off our machines, like trains, and our dreams, like blue tye dye pants hanging from big trees at noon or midnight, the Sleep-Wake cycle and the River of Human Doings will justify the dimension of our dissolution... into youth untolerated and freedom infallible.

In the past 7 days, I watched 36 hours of healthy-ish bums living through a wire down to the hopeful minute, on top of their merry Park-Like mini-mountains, whith  rich amenity-drenched gated neighborhoods, of the Future, themes and dissents and dissertations and the Endings of Mediocre media-units, limit of 5 hours per segment, one viewing session, one Title.

I am the past and the Present an' thee most ergonomic.

Friday, December 18, 2020

Essential Rinser

  The Elfhame Country Club of West Westhurstshire

 - watched The Holiday for the fifth time, today ( on this day )



Transcendent Because I Belong

 You tryin ' to cheer me up for a change ?

I believed in a solid wake -

fulness, a brown moon earned

on your upper arm,

where deltoid meets bicep;

You kiss your shoulders, Dearest.

No one donates 200 dollars

to No Hungry Kids on Facebook.com. 

This energetic misexchange

of valuing merchandising 

missed the first last chance 

We had to re-regulate

distasteful calculations, 

Miss in her prime,

missing the baby in the Church 

Mass at midnight. 

This was it for now, Lovelee,

No one knew you knew them too.


Actually I don't know. 

" so how you doing "  basically

Meadow State Divulsion

No, yeah, it was really great to have you here.

Open your eyes just so you can stay along




Wednesday, December 16, 2020

Favourite First Names

Abigail

Concepción

David


Jesus

John

Lily

Magdalena

Mary

Michele

Phil

Sam, short for Samantha

Sara

Sofia

Sojourner

Will




Sunday, December 13, 2020

You May Become Another Person

 a fun board and video game

                                                   Cast of Characters 


- Joanna Sojourn. Age: 22. HP: 6. MP: 8. Special item: Gate Key, with which one may pass through a gate to another place or time, becoming another person.

- Terra Bïte. Age: 122? HP: 10. MP: 7. Special item: Gate Machine, with which one may create or alter a gate. 

- Brian Company. Age: 21. HP: 5. MP: 6. Special item: Too long scarf, with which one may hide or trip someone.

- Doctor Cabinet. Age 89. HP: 1. MP: 9. Special item: Mysterious Cabinet, which when opened reveals something which will be useful to the opener in an as-yet-unknown way, within 28 days.

- Richard Phase. Age 50. HP: 8. MP: 5. Special item: Magnet that attracts the closest object of whichever material the user chooses, range of 6 miles.

- Xu Xu Byul. Age: 32. HP: 7. MP: 7. Special item: Radio station, which can interfere or override other radio signals.

- Adoba T. Peach. Age: 60. HP: 9. MP: 6. Special item: Necklaces and bracelets with rare gems, which distract and persuade people.


                                         Sydney, Australia.   1950 A. D., August 28th, 7 pm

"I heard there was a super conductor that doesn't need to be measured in thousands of decibels," Joanna says toward Brian. Brian looks across the water at the occasional nautical activity, not really listening. Neither is Joanna, to herself. She wears a white sun dress and a wide blue wicker hat, even though winter is deep. Brian's scarf hangs to the ground, a dirty 2 inches. A weak sour breeze passes, he sort of grimaces reaches for her hand, and she, unaware, jumps up and gestures broadly. 

"I could do more than 10 men! If only they gave me the tools and the time I need... I'm certain I can figure out these damn problems. I'll finish Book 1 today, then get 2 from the Library -- Automatic Intercycle Rhythm Restoration is simple really, or it is for me, now..." She trails off and Brian looks uncomfortably confused. He stands, seeming surely unsure, and says softly, "Realité -"

What's that supposed to mean? Joanna sojourns.


- An expansion to Eldritch Horror. When in Sydney in that game, you may use an action to enter this game, YMBAP.




Saturday, December 12, 2020

Tom Waits Like

 I'll stab your rainbow wings into the slaver's back.

I wish you were a raygun, so I could get my shingle snack.

Burn down the docks. Cure the seagulls' cancer.

Our valley of ravens shall beget the long lost saviour.

The bells of the abandoned church ring out our children's ashes.




 Coolidge was a tangent 

Holy mother Nancy 


If you were born last century 

Slowly pile on the sleepy tree.



Stranger than a Mysteru

 Stranger than a mystery,

My self doubt is history.

I show up in Hollywood;

Every person says I'm good.


[ audio recording from 2015, spurred by Comedy Bang Bang the podcast ]



Open to it

 Parallel Openness 

Attitude French love dig

- a dig is an insult or a harsh critique

- to dig is to like a lot, to be really into like it's your thing


The Healing Room - comfort joy hope care love content hero bliss heaven forever realness reliability trust faith truth                                   a s m r



boil sautee bake refrigerate 

Shoes toilet shower sink towel underwear bed

House town river city forest plains game meat lettuce spinach beans eggs bones Library google fiber macbook best buy geek squad parking lots


Cars. Going to celebrate holidays driving around and looking at some family talking about the next week and last year and a year away, no one knows, but we will wear more clothes and not have to take it seriously and be careful to make a decision about how to get the best of our time and what we need to know, because it will help the whole process, - the solution of history, This Dissolving Cosmos, our eternal faces spread thin on the record of our intentions and earnest natural soul trajectories, towards meaning beyond life....


~ predictive




Friday, December 11, 2020

Pizza Deliverance

I'm delivering pizzas at 7:30.

-

It's 62 degrees, substantial cloud cover, a bluish grey, no dramatic sunrise, a steady brightening.

I get into my Hyundai sedan.

I live to the southwest of a city of one million. It's about an hour's drive on a good day. 

I know about 55 of my neighbors by name.

Somewhere like Texas, California, Pennsylvania or a place one trillion light years away from Us.

[ We Have Amnesia Sometimes ]

-

I make them in my house. They are delicious and nutritious.

I wake at 3. I make a bowl of Quaker oatmeal and eat it with raisins and cream.

I do about 10 pizza recipes. 10 different toppings, besides cheese.


I got a big, red, insulated bag. Keeps the pizzas warm.

            I got a big, red, insulated bag. Keeps the pizzas warm.

                        I got a big, red, insulated bag. Keeps the pizzas warm.


 . . . . . . . 

Thursday, December 10, 2020

Syllable Density

Straight-laced.      2/13

Ingenuity.              5/9

Anemone.              4/7

Oligopoly.               5/9

Academia.             5/8

Idiolalia.               7/9


Strength-trained



  Big words, not lengthwise 

But words used in a big way

- Scooter

Drew Ackerman

The Santa Element



Wednesday, December 9, 2020

So for Toothbrush

 We drove back home.


The billboards lit the forest at night.

The history teacher followed, and the light was out of light.

I was getting so frustrated with my self and my life 

I stabbed my homework paper with a toothbrush like a knife 


[ originally recorded as audio. from ~2007,  revised ]




Christmas Drool

 Unassuming and periwinkle and sleep shade


Whey  in  the  Hurtfield

Here  in  the  Wheatfield

I don't know what you say


a hundred years   a hundred years

    a hundred years





Tuesday, December 8, 2020

 i can do a letter better

 

Legal Halls of Shame

Management of Lush Gods


My brother in the Wolfsburg Volkswagen Jetta

Black inside out

The day of the feast of Saint Nicholas

To a park

On a trail

Just a Dreamsong in the Dreamtime

Saturday, December 5, 2020

The Tree Thyme and You

 


Three minutes later the tree thyme realised you harvested the light dark from the yellow leaves up in the halo basket. Ten little leaves in the palm of your hand, the light dark seeped into the pores of your face. 13 light-years a light-second, the tree thyme thought through the wanders to take you over the lip of your light opera, you bumping your vision of the wing mottle to the bugle, H notes re-rehearsing, from the bottom of your head. Twenty-two feathers belied you between the fifth spaces of the tines of the tree thyme, who said, " the scent oils leak in the oxygen over West Virginia. Tommy soup dreamed the year-long book, who said, ' Tim will now join you. ' "

The grean shoots blew brown. The blinks of the ever-vanishing realness of the tree thyme swayed on the film surface, away to grape held horizon black and white cat the thinnest hair touched end to end the lonely One and the You belonging to the you here and now with us.

The End


You think you might learn.

i imagine a Hair, in a close up you see it there, floating still.

this end touches a rocky coast, like california or scotland or something. it is like a magical electrical wire over an ocean. it is maybe thousands of miles long.

it is dark but no one sees it until a few inches away.

it is perfectly strait like it is another dimension here.

it reaches toward the infinite eternal reality of One who knows better.