Sunday, December 29, 2019

Everything . Gets. Better . with . Age

A Dairy and Eggery on the North Coast of Australia Near Townsville


You can barely find any one

http://thenecksau.bandcamp.com/album/body

via Songs from the Bardo


I drank a bit of vodka, iw onder what the etyomonology of vodka is



monology


etymonline


i texted alex and aaron


i go to work with jesse and tim tomorrrow


i been coughin' a lot


well, a bit


i will be well in a bit


i love stuff


feed 2 thousand people

they live well


give more Good to this

we find our selves





This Voice Seems Loudly

Saturday, December 28, 2019

Lil Ski Bot an' Frens


i dew on the morning

12 PM

i drew on the mirror

after a shower

i got my phone to take a photo

i took no photo

of   Lil ski bot an' frens 

they were evaporating

skiin' doawn a moun'ain o' a   hill

hi    to    Lil cactus person

  an'   bird  wind  flies  close  to  feel

So Forever

%

i love Jesis

Jesus

is

my fren


Purrfect - Funki Porcini


on quora i read A WOman named Gayla  ,  june 1985 ,  the moon ,  journey

she sais 

I take my Christianity seriously.


on christmas   Little   Women

wonderful  to  watch

so yeah


My ma and i saw Jojo Rabbit yesterday

it is really nice

we will bake a frozen lasagne in an hour or so


Xtal - Aphex Twin


I have read about 80 pages of Good Husbandy

it is good

i love it

i imagined going to essex and meeting the kimballs

would be very weird and good, i hope

 mom and i talked about going to new england, new york, montreal

maybe   halifax


i felt kind of bad last night and this morn

i have had a cough a couple days

felt like a fever


i wonder when i will see aaron next

and andee

i want to give them The Dirty Life and Good Husbandry , after I buy it.

if they don't want to keep them i'll takem back


hope i feel good soon

i drank some bourbon nog

probably an extra bad time to


something else


mom plans to babysit tomorrow

she said i don't have to go . . . if i don't feel better, feel like it, don't want to


i unno


huh


i wanted to sleep more

i looked at tyler nilson's instagram


mom has been talking to tiff for about 2 hours, i think


we went to H E B about noon


got junk    and  a few  good   items


pat, bridge, kit, and lorena are coming for new years eve


i am looking forward to the sunday paper and most of all C B S sunday morning


i am not forward looking to going to work with Jesse and Tim

it will be fine


i am just too lazy

unhealth

i wanna take a walk on the road

later

I

LOVE

YOU

so    forever


                            Still    Forever



















 . . . .    Oedipal  wine

I am tasting the Am of each living subject

an oak, bark cell, a bacterium, a traincar full of squid derailed en route to New York from Montreal

an American person who has been living less than 45 years, 16 billion brain tendrils

All of us are conscious

aware of the Others    beyond beside within us

roads, streets, skies, restaurants, foods, sicknesses, movies

Bridge - Amon Tobin

aunts, cousins, coworkers, grandfather, dogs, fish, living rooms, gnats, worms

 . . . .    Produce winds the sun's light, a finger hair nerve cell, grow enough time to look into a meaningful machine

to record the intentional outcomes

Beneficial

Water

Electrocuting elocution, We savor Five Life Timers, WE organise safe Relocation

able   free   aromatic    healing    mental    resources

then End

                              The Staunton Lick     -     Lemon    Jelly




Thursday, December 26, 2019

Walk with the Cloudy Dawn after Christmas


Go to work at 7 a.m. on the roads

Have a paper cup of luke warm weak coffee

Go to the tiny bathroom

Get caught by your boss whackin' off

And the secretary's name is Melinda.

They put you in a compact car

Tell you, Son, you will not go far.


What's the date? Do you have any time?

If we can arrange a new date

Maybe Taco Bell.


They send me a pink letter

It reads, Get Off

Every day gets wetter.         [ everyday-get sweater ]

I fly to the top of Earth.


                        and Lovely music sounds ideas




i want to fly to Cape Town now

Live in a bad hotel for 6 years

Read 60 books

And write 3




Tuesday, December 24, 2019


you lost all of it

but you can get a little back

that you cannot explain

because you know not whence it came.

Free dance and sing


[ i wrote this in a sprial about 30 minutes ago i ]


I Follow My Home to the sky of the Mind

in my Body bones Liquids Airs Where Are

Thoughts , How do i control cells -

Nerves , Neurons , Quarks  Waves

Purpose  Eternity , What else is a

Soul ,  Can I see your Love

is it red and sticky and made

of smaller or Larger People

Made of Choices and Virtues

excellence , Being Better than what

May be Possible . Making Meaning ,

changing Every thing for ever


         Make   breakfast ,  ( Love + Kill : ) :

                   Animals to eat

                        Grow Gardens and

                                 Healthy

                                        Minds



i

just took a walk for about 2 minutes, but i was too cold to want to stay outside

i wonder what would happen if everyone did nothing for a day

stayed where they slept   or slept all day   or something

things would break

  power plants      infrastructures

fires        floods

people would go hungry         go cold

sick people would die sooner

animals would get in different situations probably

wild      out of our control


how long to fix everything if we can      get it back to how it was before we let it all go


how still and quiet can Earth be









Kimchi

Brother of me

No need to make anyone . . . anything

Be anyone or anything



Monday, December 23, 2019

Pizza Lane!

Pizza on the train!

Pizzas are my brains!

I hope I learn the ways

to follow the Saviour back to Pizza Lane!

I was born in a seminary.

Commissary was a nightmare once again.

Cold pizza for lunch.

I think I have a bit of a hunch.

My friends and I escape out the window!

We steal the old bike and speed thru the dusty light!

I scream, WE WILL BE ALL RITE.



Sunday, December 22, 2019


Fray   Writ

We love . . . . for a reason.
What does it mean? Is it true? Is part of it true? Is it part of the truth?

i talked to a hermit and I asked him about his lodging.
He talked to me and he answered all my wondering.
We sat on his little brown wood stools, think about all bodily functions and timing and facilities, and we perspect his 100 square foot earthy yoda hut, as we converse to meet our perceived needs and ends of tunnels and wires, trains, telephones. We deserve a rest - opposite the effort to exist - after being awake, moving muscles, burning calories for 10, 12, 14, 17 hours of a day, sun life.

For all children
Gotta eat
An older

Plants lean to fuller connections.

I will learn.

Warn

Walls of Building

The Ways to Get Out - The Books

Our families above me


He Was A Total Waste Of time.

       Parting Of The Whole

But Now He is O K Enough To Remember

               To Remind

      Enjoying a Conversation

            4%  Laughing


And while we still

Saturday, December 21, 2019

_ Free _ Time _ [ i need to read ] _


Song is makes Music helps me

I like to dream

Read to Dream

I accidentally wrote every wrong word, but is all mistakes made the Good Thing

Out of the Wierd and Unsexpected

It was A Combination and we were Maybe Grateful for a Moment

I saw a car in elgin : Grateful Ted's Carpet and Tile Cleaning

I drank almost a cup of Italian Keurig
rite now

This is Not the Left You Remember the Rite of Going Home every Minute that is Poping Possible that we rest and set aside for Poor Remembered Little People

The Portion of Food, Like Bread, Grape, 2 ounces, 1 Gram, A dead Dad, a Forgotton God


I like to type, i wonder at the meaning of Kantori Ongaku and Devendra Banhart


The over Head lite is on, 3 fluorescent bulbs, twisty glass stuff

a thing, an atom, a prescence, a tending, A written Job to make something of the energy and Time and the One Thing

will become, is becoming the Other Thing

Two or More Things of the Same Time

Hinges making

Hum Blood Statements

My Friend - Bill c    is   One of my favourite songs or Things and Friends


Every Person is my friend

this can Be True

Are You all rite ?



Four Space

Everyone Is Also Like You


I wonder if Martha Stewart likes Gatorade.

Wonder if Medina will make her 11 o'clock practice appointment.

If the Subaru forrester outback was still open for or ever

and if they made the 15,000 part checkup.

Craig's dog is a leaving for Saturdays or Now or Never.

Creamate Cats

To the Edge

The More Over


We Love Mom

For a Meal

Today


Sing Sting :   I will . .  be loved . .



Monday, December 9, 2019

No Such Thing as Boredom


hey how are you ?


i drank some rum nog and white wine with cranberry sprite


i am okay


i hear Spiegal im Spiegal now


I was listening to tim heidecker inspired spotify playlist


but i got tired of that kind stuff


Mom will go to help the school kids in about 30 minutes


I think I will drink more

wine maybe


maybe watch ASMRisAwesome

i got the password


  .   .   .    .


i plan to work with jesse and tim tomorrow at 9


mom said they forecast cold and rain

maybe we will not work then


i hope . .   .   some thing


no  thing is nothing

 anything is everything


even    thing





    How   Many    Words


    Together     Together


How many words together


Listen to Arvo Part

the first time       The Deer's Cry


Parvo   Art


















White Space


People Can See Anything by the Eyes of Mind

Any Thing Is Possible


Every Thing Will Be Very Agreeable to 3 People of 4


The Unfeeling CEILING


The Final Week of Fall 2019


Pink Blue Butterfly, Green Yellow Field, Mabel Davis District Park


Human Bodies Full of Heavy Snow


An Instrumental New Age


For Relaxation


Daily Exercise



Friday, December 6, 2019


I have tried to make every excuse possible!

Now I gotta try to sleep outside the Door!


I look at my senior year book photo;

Yes, that's me.

As am I

. . . .

You feel about this way of life

Any thing one thinks has meaning and voice.

. . . . We should all be nice.



Tuesday, December 3, 2019


 in 76

2076

Tim turns 89

And I 87

  .   .    .




The Future ( Listen to Beat Street Breakdown )

Y O U A R E
T H E F U T
U R E P L E
A S E R E M
E M B E R A
L W A Y S


Z E R O
B U L L
S H I T
O K A Y


I S M Y
M O M A
C O O L
G U Y ?


R H E T
O R I C
S Q U A
K E R S


E M E R
G E N C
Y F L A
S H E R




in 1985 i was re hospitalized

for re introducing

celestial vibrations .  .   .    .


inspired by Silver Jews , Random Rules

and Purple Mountains

I hope he is resting in peace

wonder in why and how he ever did any thing .


the ways i do any thing I can for you

because I can


In My Way


there are other words and sentences i thought to type . .


On my way

Always i am




Sunday, December 1, 2019

The Fuse of Time


a free write

My hollow green Nest below the trade of fields

Arbitrates the houses beckoning frozen

Loopholes of Land Owning

So I create new folds on the open creases

white fight old soul

while ghost reactions

Act the Yearly most sub    substantial

If You forgot

I only ask " Because we need to be free, why do we Muse Force and Stars

Perpetual

Able but A Rare Ask

Our Actual open youth Nadir Zenith

Practicalities

Foretell

Appease

the Wills

deep direct

I ask once more,

To You

Salad

on Green

Music

Force Lite

Make Space-Time

Only Let

My We Are



Saturday, November 30, 2019

It is fuckin December baby


We drive from home to an emergency room at 11:49.

Can then be worse than now?

The only way to sleep through the day is to be canine or feline.

We do it all most all of Saturday.

I show you the music inside then you show yourself a sign

This means more than any can imagine.



7:31 Cloudy Temperate . . Walk


sweat pants ,  b b All shorts ,  torn neck elk wood long sleeve green shirt ,  blue flops



Ascendin'   Arpeggio -


Can we name all our friends?

Are they Jame - Are they Aarons?


What is the point of falling forward?

What is the loss of taking a walk?


Am I used to (by) taking the order?

Can we know how the BeingsTalk?


Can You get what You want?

Can we give You All of Us?




People Also Ask

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https://en.m.wikipedia.org › wiki

Boötes void - Wikipedia
Do black holes die?
Answer by Frank Heile, P.h.D. Physics, Stanford University, on Quora: Black holes have a finite lifetime due to the emission of Hawking radiation. However, for most known astrophysical black holes, the time it would take to completely evaporate and disappear is far longer than the current age of the universe.Jun 30, 2017

https://www.forbes.com › 2017/06/30


What Happens When A Black Hole Dies? - Forbes


The largest supermassive black hole in the Milky Way's vicinity appears to be that of M87, at a mass of (6.4±0.5)×109 (c. 6.4 billion) M  at a distance of 53.5 million light-years.

Lactose

Re:imagi

ned

         Fuel

          Inje

                   Ction

                   Do you

                    Think

                    You're

Real ?

And soup for you to spill on anyone

A cup of your life

Taco

Tear-

Sday

Like looking at the sun

Destroying itself.

Rip your eye from the sky

The holy one begs corners to flatten

And reimagine.

The always right answer

Will Restart

A You Me You sandwich.



Friday, November 29, 2019

How to save How You Love ?

Krismiss is the time of year

Taking a walk through the rain

E'erything is joy and fear

What a wonderful feeling

Suck all of the air out of the moon

It is just a bit of a balloon

Everything you know as your life

Are the wise wishes of the Christ of Wife



Thursday, November 28, 2019


dreams are like

what if hell were heaven?

what if everyone who ever exists or who can never exist were my only friend and we shared everything with each other?

i should poo in the next
... i pooed.

do i want you, reader, to read this?

why do i type words, think the words i think . . ?

i did bank and credit card stuff this morn

i just read You, Reader by Major Jackson from a paris review email

i like it more than most things

i think i will post it on fb in a moment

You, the Living is the english title of the swedish title of a movie i saw about ten years ago

momis makin thanks giving foods

pat and bride and lorena and kit are coming here in 4 or 5 hours

i want to drink eggnog and rum and feel good . . . about every thing

later doug and his family are coming here .  they are annoying except natalie is cool .

 it ' s okay  . .  .   .  it  '  ll  be   o k

i want to hear that song that goes - i've loved you for a thousand years ,  a thousand years . . .

i think it is on scott pli-g-im

the end

of to day

tomorrow mom and i plan to see tim and chelsea ,  maybe they will come here

or we will go to their house

 . . .

Who   Is    Never   ?


i have had ~ half a cup of coffee and i have almost cried a couple time today


i looked up plumtree, the song scott pilgrim i've *liked you for a thousand years


mom asked me to vacuum rugs and i just did. i put the 2 extra chairs at the table

           and to leaf blow the porch

she just showered and i took 2 drinks from the big rum bottle . . . cruzan , gold

i feel weird

i wonder how Aaron and Andee are

i had a good dream about them a couple nites ago

hugged her

upset

sorry

out in the open

Clearing Air

clear words ,  good clear intentions

Reconcile

Smile

Facial Hairs

Fun


i think it was ~ 7 30 when i began this

it is 9 26


i should eat a bit

a little croissant


i woke nervous about family interactions

excited by holiday

i am excited because i have four days in a row without as much obligation

just worked 3 days with tim and jesse

work with tim monday and tuesday

jesse said in ~ a week or 2 i can join them on a job that may take ~ a week


i got almost 800 dollars in the past week

it is wierd

i hope i win at least 100 thousand dollars in the lottery, next time i get a ticket, maybe tuesday


it was 9  54

now it is 9 56


i am wearing a blue land's end vest that mom bot but it was too big


i want to pee outside in a minute




Tuesday, November 26, 2019

          blue   more

                      aplle   trail

                                              Christ   fidget

                   

       tree    free

new   few

o.k.   hi

i.   v.



Sunday, November 24, 2019

Wait Far Land Film on a 44 inch TV 12 feet from my eyes

the Sea

feel sick

lonely habits

capture your life

hold too hard


Cape Kneelhouse

Stony Batter

Phat Eternal English Library


Specify Prolific Holographic Deprivation




26 and 54 . Faster Hunger


What else is everything ?


Nothing is they .



Thursday, November 14, 2019

Showin Hoein Sowin Growin


Hello, Good Morning

Hello Good Morning

Good Morning, America

Good Morning, good morning

ello, good morning


Michael Ewing

Patrick Ewing

Patrick Wredberg

I don't know where you are going. How about you show me?

How 'bout showing me your hoeing and your sowing?

S-E-W , S-O-W

H-O-I-N-G

H-O-E

Till the land and sow the seeds.

Till the soil.

Michael Ewing

Patrick Ewing

Patrick Wredberg

I am going, how 'bout you?

How 'bout showing me where to go with You?


Am I You? Are You Me?

Are We going to the same place beyond what we can see?


I drank some Vodka that I just bought at 10:45 in the morning.

sigh...


How 'bout showing me where you are going? Are you hoeing? Are you sowing

the seeds that we will be growing

up towards the internal eternal infinite

God of Love

Love of God

God's Love


Good Bye

Good Morning

I will talk to you soon

and I will be showing you to -

O -

Owe . . .

Yes




Plans for 2020


[ Pamela Mortensen plays didgeridoo ]


A lot people got a lot of plans for the year 2020. Two thousand twenty,

but what do we know about what we do know?

What do we know about any thing? What do we know about our selves?

Do we know the future? Do we know any tangible physical reality?

What is reality? What is our reality? What is experience, consciousness, memory ?

What do we know about the year 2020?

What do we think

we will choose to do ?

Good bye

Have a good Life.

Love,

Me




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I woke at 6. In bed before 21:00, I woke about 4 times in the night.
I thought of an abstract character. I thought of my own absurd living arrangement, my own cloudy reasoning and my own irreversible choices. I rationalize the ends. The means mean next to nothing, when I always imagine the End is always within each unit of reality.
At 8 something, I walk to the toilet and poo. I use about 10 feet of about the thinnest toilet paper. I read a page about Bernard Shaw by Jacques Barzun. It is nice. I care about Philosophy and Religion more than most, I do or they do, we all do anything for a purpose for an effect for a feeling . . . or Anything Just Happens, because we are, we think, the future will be the past, all is always infinite.
I make a cup of coffee with a dash of creamer, vanilla I think. I eat 2 "snockerdiddles" that my mom made last night. I helped for a few minutes in total.
I thought of about 80 different words and if they were what I thought they were. Who is correct about a word or any meaning?
I got on a tablet with a keyboard attached. I got the internet, but it was slow and not working, for me, for anyones.
I got on facebook.com and watched part of my memory of The Indigenous Games, 2015, no sound, no volume. I shared it, or tried to . . .
My mom watches TV news . . . et cetera. I edited a document, " cribshitter anagrams " , CHRIST TRIBE.
A tribe called Christ.
Why does anyone know or care
It is a bit of a big birthday
it happens
because
we all
fall
for it
over Our Heads ,      ,    Our Heels      ,    We May Heal Our Selfs     ,     Health  For  All   ,    Why  Wa

The Loss of Migmozo


Orister


How Long?

Too Long


I run away

with my mom and my dad.




Tuesday, November 12, 2019

Bull Thistle atop Pines


Cirsium vulgare

Pinus Taeda



Poetless



Mind spoke.

Mind's always open and receiving.

Minds just dwell within each other.


I walked to the 2 below freezing wind. Enough light lifted me, embodied knowing - better - back to sustaining safety,  scolded, wakeful . . .

Minds give empathy and prayers to ones fighting to survive and to ones fighting survival.

Elements erase, then lump and mush residudes into new elemental modes of mind.

Poke the dead blown mind, perfect for easy, blown-by-the-wind skeptic solipsistics.

I wrote a way to prevent my eternal existence.

I read what I wrote; I spoke idealistically through all interiors, houses of intellect, temples of heat and health -

The Superior, though all not known, create the full endless collection,

the boundless . . .

float on the hours still of the days, infinitely divisible, we will fill the whole mind -


                                           Cross - Witness - Judge - Believe




Monday, November 11, 2019

Only Drink Alcohol When You're Drunk


        Yacht    Notches


Yes,   We   Ought   Not   to


Dawn Walk


                  Imbue Me


Peace just makes the world go away.

Each day a new miracle comes to stay.

A rocky road fell on the Earth.

Can we justly prolong our good health?

Would we be wise to know all the ways to go

back and forth to our Mother and our Death?



Wet Owl Wings



Saturday, November 9, 2019


Self Correct



  1. Asparagus
  2. You Disagree
  3. My Electric Horse
  4. Into Fours
  5. Answer
  6. Pour Us Out
  7. Eggs
  8. The Virgin Leaves



Hear the Crush



  1. Bombay Plastics
  2. Arn and Tiohwe
  3. Make the Save
  4. On a School
  5. Travelocity Booker
  6. Mega-Realization
  7. Congratulation
  8. Double Frost Eyes
  9. Heat a Partial Meal
  10. Grown, Cut, Sown




   

Thursday, November 7, 2019


Wet Owl Wings



  1. Cross Bow Brown
  2. Some Rainbows Never Lean
  3. Lonely Kid Esthetics
  4. Search a Wash
  5. Record a Record
  6. Saviour Park
  7. Middle City
  8. No Cold Move
  9. Last Night Was the Last Night Ever
  10. Want Opening

Sunday, November 10, 2019

Code Names 1 - 12


Oreo

Twinkie

Thatch

Fold

Fig

Sim Card

Selotape

Eggo

Nickel

Television

Velcro

Leaves

Our Fungus




every detail  -  unit of reality [ ru ]  -  is too funny - explosive

We all try infinitely too hard


each Lite is briter and darker

darker than hell in here

Here is where You think you are


I hope the light of our soul will regrow its hearts

and its Fungus will pollinate All thru the windows of our mind



Saturday, November 9, 2019

Self Correct



  1. Asparagus
  2. You Disagree
  3. My Electric Horse
  4. Into Fours
  5. Answer
  6. Pour Us Out
  7. Eggs
  8. The Virgin Leaves


Friday, November 8, 2019

Margaritas, Queso, Wait for Everybody


 -  my mom said that


Hear the Crush



  1. Bombay Plastics
  2. Arn and Tiohwe
  3. Make the Save
  4. On a School
  5. Travelocity Booker
  6. Mega-Realization
  7. Congratulation
  8. Double Frost Eyes
  9. Heat a Partial Meal
  10. Grown, Cut, Sown





i  look  forward  to  the  time  when  we  are  all  old

no  one  really  cares  too  much

this  will  be  done  soon   . . . .




Life Was Better After the Movie


walk on up the side walk

with                                         a cave

                           a cave                                 a cave

Thursday, November 7, 2019

Wet Owl Wings



  1. Cross Bow Brown
  2. Some Rainbows Never Lean
  3. Lonely Kid Esthetics
  4. Search a Wash
  5. Record a Record
  6. Saviour Park
  7. Middle City
  8. No Cold Move
  9. Last Night Was the Last Night Ever
  10. Want Opening

A Fun Lil Start of a Day Song


Cows go the kitchen

Cows go Home

Cows eat Minerva

Cows eat bones.



The crew lounges on the edge of the boat

Wednesday, November 6, 2019


i wanna realise something more than God

Earth is an obstacle to all your freedoms


Mega phone phone phone phone

Always okay to leave the World

       Send in the World Away


Dusty, perfect or wrong

it is okay if you never sing
-
Dusty, perfect or wrong

it's okay that you never sing


it's perfect if you do not know or care or want anything again

it is perfect if you never know or care or want or need

it is you

it is you

its you .




means you're getting better at corpse pose


6 am little lite

9 pm a sleepy warm dark

A sub-urban embrace

the soft calm pervasive Weight of comfort

 The Center                Slow motion expansion of mystery energy

Atmosphere Between

the colors embrace themselves from Inside   out above the yards

                               the simple loving dying Trees



i love you, but i'll talk to you at the breakfast table


our bilingual refugee


made it clear you don't want an edge

Due Dilgence


Behind the Safeway

Something so pure about behind the Safeway

there are dumpsters and rats and oil

an old safety vest

an old safety vest

2,000 clouds from horizon to horizon

air temperature drops from 85 to 60

Don't work fast enough, around the clock

2 miles west are 50 acres of grass, hills and a ranch house

Monday, November 4, 2019



is 2 and 3 and 4

2 plus 3 plus 4


he is cancel the meeting

he is can't sleep awake

an 8

a 9

he is 2 and 3 and 4


a life change again

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