rode bloc

1:09
13

loc ki's in car on Pr Pse

i got spr ki ,  but I wana wait of Pop Loc .

Skip ANY doin'

    wait  for    EterN .      bore the sexi ist pants

OFF  the  Holy   rider ,  Music Son ,  Born  Bein'


Audio , Video - Real   -  Love  -  Person ,  For   ever

                    -  1st Name ?
                                            Dougsnakes
    Last Name ? -  iforgot

i am at the Institute for Lookin Feelin + Doin'

Good Acts ,  or  Deafblind  Beleeving Correctly

All of the Times . . .   it in 2 trees ,  Cedar

Pine  Oak ,  A Professor ,  A Beautiful Perceft

Assist Ant , Person Human ,  A Town Village

the  Lonely Sky ,  the Perfect Apparatus

for  Prepare  the  Life of  Stable Intervene

the Life of  Boy Girl  ,  Hold and

content  -  Satisfy  ,  Future   Sustain    Helth

A Conversation with Human Comedy

I woke at about 6:30 in the morning. My mom let the dogs out. She turned on the TV....
This is where I escape Reality.... all too often.
I found myself in a four door sedan parked in front of the building where Bob Odenkirk was waiting to meet the representative from a TV network that I or you have never heard of.

So I looked out of the car's windows and I looked at the passenger seat and saw a really special tuna sandwich. So I would do what Anyone almost yearly would forsee, I ate the darg nang thing.

Then I used a old piece of floss to floss my teeth.
---
This
seems to be my pattern
I am alone,
I drink alcohol
( what I think I can get away with )
I listen to music
and I sing and type and write Mostly Non Sense.
---
Then thru a wall of glass, I saw Bob Odenkirk walk thru a hallway.
I hurried and unbuckled my seatbelt.
I calm burred out off the Car Camry.
I thought just like my Mother tot Me, I know not to worry, Do I?
"Just settle down, There is no alcohol, Or bad pigs near here, Where is the Hospital?"
I heard him so clear. So I beegan My Perfection List, 1, NO Tomato,
THEN I FORGOT. ... I am so sorry. So I
Said,
Jesus Christ, these words are the words of a person who

is not all to gether.

I put on Adam Green Spotify radio. I like
it.

I have had more tequila and cointreau and stuff, but I think I should have not.

Fix My Blues - Adam Green

Then the story I started came back... Bob Odenkirk walked past my car, and I realised I had been staring at the windshield and drooling.
I thought I had already gotten out, but I unbuckled and opened the car door and closed it, and I walked as fast as I could while seeming normal down the side walk toward Bob the Freaking Odenkirk.

So, I admired palm trees. I asked myself why I had waited ten years to fill my prescription for fun time.

Herndographic Words

   -   graphic Words from Greg Wredberg's Mind
for Greg Wredberg
I had sex with Holly Herndon. She made music. I heard on line. We met in the future of the Internet and Cafe Culture.
We walked through many thousands of Centraol Parkes.
We ate thousands of kind lobsters.
We fucked ourselvers with butter and cream and garlic salt.
We each had 50 50 year long orgasms
and It Was So Possible . . .

Hername was once Jesus the Christ and mine was Moses the Infidelity-Maker.
She had 55 extra muscles and could lift 1000 pounds on Earth over her head
and put it back to Earth quietly, softly, womanly.
I had fifty-five extra mind-thoughts and I can Expertly Open Any Document With my Mind
and Feel the REgards of ten thousand Saints of Beautiful Mathematical Calculations.
Manly.
Okay, then
the end...

This    Was    True

On August 5, 2019
Andee turns 30 years old, since birth
She and her husband Aaron dislike her parents, Stacy and Henry
They like her younger brother, Tristian
I think of Andee , about every 2 hours
Her son , Aaron's step , Malakai just turned 12 years old
I love Aaron and Andee
so much
i do not know if I can ever deserve their love
i just want to be a good friend , real eternal friend love . . .
i guess everyone deserves everyone's love
i do not know if everyone can be a good friend
one must be one's own best friend
God is everyone's best friend
They are always doing everything For You
nothing is possible without Them
i love myself
love has no opposite , Anne Lamott wrote somethin' like that in Bird by Bird
i read some of that
it was pretty nice

The internet was not workin'
so I'm typing to entertain myself
Listenin' to The Reminder - Feist
Slow song , track 5
I want to know her name and look at photos of her face

Aaron Andee and i play on Fisherman's park by the Colorado , colored river
our immediate families are Present and Loving
and grand parents , dead or a live
and future children . . . or maybe . . .
Sun shine
wind blow
healthy Universal cells

I want to be aaron
to me
shaking
breathing
laughing
smiling
sleeping
dreaming
sweet dreams
making and giving Eternal Love , O.K.

This   Is   Fantasy
All Is True
Shake Speare
Thomas
Saint
Blood
Rum
Feces , Alimoney , Rooney , Mara , Space WHores , Compliments , Puberties , Aching , Wheel , Humanology, Futurology, Plans for Every Day, Suns, Every plant on land, 90% of every Ocean . . . .

The End.

Some Time Sthe Mind

. . . - Now I can't talk about that - I had a big breakfast - and it hurts when i leave my own face . . . .

  -   the  rocks  palnts  airs  minerals  other  Specific  Chemicals  who  have  to  be  them  selves

                                     -

Some times the mind outside sparkles as a dying leaf

a swallow wallows thru high grief light Alone Purely for the sakes of teal

Life Fire  ;    smuckers besmirches

White frozen time will liquefy belief  ,    but I sam wise You

                    to day of all the
Looking for a sign or a post  ,    19 words that revel or reveal
Sight won't not wrong the quiet details
Foretell razor red human shame
Arm buckle
knead needless music
Partly happen
I declare from now on  ,   the flow of commerce and trade equalizes
Across all the types of Place and Personhoods
As beggars compile unknowable biomasses -
Attempt ecologically the Ever Foreign
Black Shirt  ,   Frame Work
To Your sense bring and connect   .   .   .

       Next Christmas is a big deal .

I'm puttin on my big shoes and walkin to the old folks' meal .

I'm lickin the ash from the babies' faces like a clean Lion does .

I'm sittin on the barley stumps

Greetin the c- co- the cor- cr- the c- courage of the Heroes .

I'm sittin on barley stumps ,  greetin the Courage of the Heroes . . .   .

A Leonard Cohen Knock Off

            This is the gift
For and from
My only child

Branded on the fore-skull
Of a woman who died .

Always it is
Too soon to Relive . . .





inspired by The Goal

before i have heard it

i have had Big Theif - Not  stuck in my mind for at least a day

it's okay

i change :


It's not the memory reeling

not the life of your face


the Light of Space

- a skylight on the sky of space

     an  expensive realization

a privelege ,  another's  impossibility


A snot and energy feel , Friend

A line

thru  Regulation   Pond


Lies

Fire  of  the  Country

Out   being   safe

i need an emotional support person

i can go

i can do


they can be with me

i have to have them

we are okay

they are my emotional support person

look it up

its real

Old                Time

Gospel   

?             Banjo   Mandolin   Cello   Fiddle   Bass   Per cussin

I want you to know.

I love you. I love you

I will let you know.

The stars will die.

The sky will fall.

I  will love you.

I love you.

I love you all

Ask Around

Truth Be Told

This Life

These Folk

Are Wonders

To Be Told

                Early Mid Morn

20 to 30

Per cent

Per son

: False

   ]   ]    Falls

Leaves

Cause Effects

Redie

Renew   [   [


The sun-shine on the sky is blue

The clouds are the sky


Light Blue Ink

4 by 5 Note Book Paper

A Park

A Library

other slightly different parks


Walkin like an Englishman on the tide of knowin nothin

Walkin like a Dutchman on the shore of knowin nothin

Walkin like an Americanman on the cloud of knowin nothin

Walkin like an Irishman on the kitchen of knowin nothin

Walkin like a Britishman on the sponge of knowin nothin

Walkin like an African on the river of knowin everything .


Can you sit on a log eating unusual old pies?
. . .  Yes .


I then walked on to a disc golf course near 2 recreational vehicles, if questioned, ' I am meeting a friend, Dys... topian Chicago.
His name is Dystopian Chicago?
. . .  .  uh-huh.

I sit near the help desk at ACC Riverside. She asks, Can I help you? I say, I am waiting for a friend. Juan Jose Castillanos.
Is that his name?
No, that's just what I say when I wait for a friend.


:  Fake

6:30 a.m. Cancel subbing at BIS by text again.

3 counties and cities

Drive and walk around all day. Kind of tired.

of it

Lie to Mom ,  make  up  stories   and   people

Words

Not a Future

Faces

Foods

Bodies

Light

Dark

Heat

Cold

Sleep

Internets

Phones

Plans

Pasts

Minds

Whys


Someone I maybe :

You suffer for no reason ,  more than most suffering for no reasons

The Reason is  You did not try to reason ,  to have a reason

make  a  reason


  get it good


    .  .   .    .

Subbing , Nervous , Talking , Morning , Puberty , Confide , Relieve

Nothing   Matters  ,

However  ,  Growing   Changes

Amongst   Godhood  .

it is

Adrienne Lenker ,  Big Thief 

[ i thought of looking up her name to check my spelling ,  but decided to keep this even if it is misspelled ]

It's not the Sun and the Moon and the Stars N the Sky

It's not the Sun over the Brook Behind the Moons  [ [  ASMR  [  Fuzzy Woman

Dodgers , dooger ,  brooke leigh thorne , dexbonus ,  thebrooke - Find Love - Clem Snide cover ,  You Tube ,  France ,  L. A.  England  -

and the Boiled Cabbage runs away with on the Long and Winding Fork


it'd be nice if your body were my body too


it's not wind of sound for all the human ears on the heads

supple and gust and Crayola and nuptial and office waiting room

a brown wood and carpenter face daylights parking lot

and fast food Four inches of Human Meat going cars and screens

it's not holy or water wading now or for ever

it's not what, a waste, spinning and lying Still as never before or after

it is about 24 hours ,  and a paper and a document and a life of sentences

How   about   it

it's not me flowing or forgetting

spaces or times

their eyes

expecting

their words

works

names

the selves of our selves

Reflections Eternal

the Riteness

the PROOF

the Allowance

the Yes

the Correct

the Deciding

the Moving

The Changing

The Belonging


The Round

The one

   i  '  m   pretty happy
                                               as words go

                                   save what You need

  to  a  Bit  Below

underpin leftover slo-mo

                         my behest ,  aRe  quest

sloven mortal souljer

                                           do Me best

Manly  aRisen ,  quote Miss calculation

a Love neuropathic in bony Redress

Pry poppies young for total Impress

Lie Among and free tally

                     The most Home-less



inspired by Gerard Manley Hopkins

I am going to meet Sunday and her lady snakes

out unda the Rotunda behind the Mixing Mikey Mart

next door neighbor fecal matter we are racing to the end of Nowhere

Miracles of Pissing Yourself

I've been watching some of The Office on Comedy Central , season 5 i think , or 6 . I still love it.

Mom went to lie on her bed , she started to feel bad yesterday.

title of this reminded me of Sarah Silverman's Bedwetter

And I was just thinking of her in realation to the words creamy and silky


watching Jeopardy last eve, Mom was thinking of Forgetting Sarah Marshall , but said Saving Sarah Silverman , again.


she made waffles with Kodiak mix

they fell apart , they were all rite

i made bacon , 2 strips each


I have had almost 2 cups of coffee and coconut creamer


I want to eat something soon

it is already 1:45

i got up about 9:15


I have no plans until Substituting a bilingual 2nd grade class at Red Rock on Wednesday, 3 days. my mom is also subbing 2nd grade there and then, we'll carpool . .

My car might be ready before then. I'll put about 1,500 on my credit card.

nathan works there ,  we used to hang out as kids , like friends , now it feels awkward for me to interact with him


i saw a little ceasar's Quattro commercial ,  and i said to mom, let's get pizza

we plan to make PF chang's frozen tonite


we saw The Mustang last nite. It is all rite

a guy got mad in a figh and severely brain damaged his wife and is in prison and trains a horse and they hurt each other and has hard talks with his pregnant daughter and frees the horse and they write each other nice letters

the end

     I never think of neighbors as specifically near

and no one ever happens to be followed by no one.

Breath Breathes

The title of my best work

or my work of a life time

is   Breath Breathes

or   Breaths Breathe

Breaths is kinda hard to say and sounds like breasts


anyway

Antique Salad Dressing

Antique Salad Dressing

Antique Salad Dressing

Antique Salad Dressing


  and  Goodnight Moon ASMR


  The  End

Low down snow crown

Reach around and float on the summer tide

This about


Everythngs'   the Same

As it was Yesterday

It does'n matter

Everthing is the same

Last Year's Next Explosion

The Last Next Year


Mom is sick


Sick

I think you ate whatchoo came here for



gonna scrape all the bugs from your door



no more doors left out for the snow shine



      Love   is    for    the    slow   times

Laryy

the cable

guy breaks my fetish stream

of bacon cheese death water.


 .  .   .    .

 I wish it were raining hard rite now

                                                                         I would be 10 percent better

        if I were any better than this.


                                                                  Where was I going

    with this?

He's already been ready


He's been   a        forest      before

Seems we got a good joke for those who aren't dead


Seemswegotagoodjokeforthosewhoaren'tdead



Seems             we            got          a            good            joke            for           those            who             aren't             dead

Tim Heidecker Poems from Office Hours 5/31/2,019

"

of all the splendor under the sun
there is
               but
                       not
                               one
child among us
who dwellves and deeps
hearted pastures green

there is but one
when The Circus comes to town -

e e cummings
                 
    .    .     .     .

Of all the splendor under the sun,
          Children panting and pooping in their Sunday blouses,
          There is not but one...

Walt Whitman

"

- Tim Heidecker

Very short monkeys

Licking no cremes

From the ladies' neckties

Audio from 2 Youtube Videos I Recorded and Uploaded This Morn

Wrestle a Dove


i - i found a fatal flaw in the logic of love

and i went out of my head . .

no one can wrestle a dove .

[ hear a breath breathe in ]


Its nine am


hey i've had a weird couple of days

the past 19 years

i didn't think about what i was gonna do

i thought about what i did

i thought about some one else

then i thought about my self

goodnight

see ya in the mornin'

it's nine a. m.

HD Audio Recorder - [ My Phone Microphone ]

Honda God

Hah, my brother's.. My brother is Stormy Daniels. Eh eh - Don't worry - He has no necks like a Honda God.


Fire Racing Time

My boobs are on fire. I'm racing to the end of time. My boobs are

on fire.

I am

racing to

the end of time.


A Bag of Water

God knows .. who we are. God knows who we are. God- God know

who we are. God-

God know(s) who we are.

God KNOWS who we are.

We Could Be a Bag of Water -

We could be a bag of water.


20 years old tomorrow, A Fetal Page, Light of You

I am 20 years old tomorrow. I am 50 years old years yesterday. [x2]

I'm about to step on a scorpion. I crushed it and it's- I think it was already dead.

Didn't crunch that much.

Anyway... I am 20 years old tomorrow; I am 50 years old yesterdaay.

2 different people staring into each other's faces [x2 , aaces]

We are all dead one day. We are all alive today. As different as one person can be. We are as different as one person can bee. They are as different as one person can be.

What was the last line; I forgot everything...

What was a thing? What will be anything?

Will we be anything? We can be anything.

We are two people staring out into ourselves [x2]

i turned 29; i turned thirty... nine.

every day was a wishy washy spectacle

i didn't sing because i had no mind

i had a mind and i used it like a life line

every day i woke up a different age

every morning i was a fetal page

  -     -   wash me with you face  -

       wash me in the light of Yours . . .    .



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Christ is a christmas cracker.

Next door leaves alone with no one to grow old . .

should sleep in mom's bed tonite. maybe not. it's too scary

Christ is a christmas cracker.

Next door leaves alone with no one to grow old .

Christ is a christmas cracker.

Next door leaves alone with no one to grow old . . .

[ hot tub pump sound ]


I Got It All Right

One wrong makes one rite   [ door opens to the out , bird caws ]

i got it all rite

i got it all rite . . . [ bird caws ]

One wrong makes one rite

i got it all rite

i got it all rite

If Natalie's birthday breakfast

  Give     Us     a       Chance



If you think I made up the existence of banana peels


If you think I made up

The Banana of Existence Peels

THere is no more fried chicken on this earth . . .

My book

My book

I am out for a day

Leave my name under a Tree

Walk Early , Wake Earlier

If you can walk

If you can wake


If you have legs

If you have arms

If you have vision


Christmas Night

Little Moon Float

The Islands

The U. S. Ocean

On - Earth



i   you   care


..    .       .

No

Coffee

for

Sleep

      A metal sign by the northwest corner of 290 and 95

   in the morn

      No One Mean

not safe

A McDonald's restaurant

Capital Plaza, I-35

6 PM, May, maybe before

A two-year-old human Person

Eyeballs

Legs, arms, fingers, brain

Ams

The Study

Protect

Purpose

Connect

Surface

Deeper

Another building, another vehicle

Police People

People with no money

No Friends

try to remember the present

Why

spinning

orbiting

bathrooms

restrooms

bowels

nuggets

apoptosis

genetic degeneration

Fire of our fibres ,  Awake a little room of the Early Morn ,  Pre Sun

An Historic

The context of you wanting

The End

has another wait

list


i'm gonna faint it

I just spent about 30 seconds trying to plug in my phone charger behind my bed, because I thought it was my tablet charger, but it didn't fit between my bed and the outlet. I thought it kinda funny. Why would I make that mistake? I am still sleepy. It's 5:24. I just had affecting dreams of myselves that I remember a bit of. 

and

To try to be good, to do good, make better lives, give better lives, live better lives,

Just because they are possible, we are possible.

Learn God

God Learn what we are

Pay attention to each detail

Each Person

Within each person

Eternity of now

The glue of atomic structures

Energies, Physics

Skim, glide, surf all sunsets

Save wave particles
Understand Land

Textbooks

Doctor Minds

Vegetable Seeds

Livestock Souls

Animal Hearts

And

Dream

it's 2:42 ,  i woke about 10 minutes ago

i have a bit of burn Heart acid throat from lil Ceasar's

Anyway, I am in a suburban dense housy and greenish Place with Mom

The sky is grey , clouds dark and stormy . I see cloud pieces swirl and i think a tornado's forming

i am scared and tell mom and that we should go inside . A real tornado forms but seems small and slow

we knock and doorbell a nice house . Mom knows the person , we go inside . Two ladies live there , probably teachers maybe retired .

They were eating pizza hut and offer us some. I eat some . Mom and I reveal to them we just ate pizza hut .

Later , we meet other people who eat pizza hut.

Mom is texting with the ladies , i guess we left , guess the weather's safe

i look at her text thread , every other word is weird emoji

i show patrick and say, they use a lot of emojis

They text about vacations or beaches of the north east , shellfish , gold digging or something

Before all that . I investigate possible aliens or space craft with FBI or CIA guys who seem from the 50s or 60s.

Old house , semi-rural , funny little flying saucer

some guy or alien shows and tells how it works

i don't know what i'm doing

more people

i sit down to pee

of course the toilet is open to the room and it's like some open tent structure , like a crashed plane , temporary government work site

some guys are next to me waiting for the toilet

i'm too nervous and distracted to pee , a guy close to me talks me through

 ..  .    .   .

it's  3:07

goodnights

Heart-Spun Home-Tale

my mom and i just watched moondog, The Beach Bum

I just heard Brandi Carlisle singing and Evangeline

Nice Folk for Nice Songs, People Running Hair Shafts Glowing Like a Light from Inside

Like Tried from DoingHandymanCarpentryandJunkandStuff

Like Drunk in the Tiny Brain of What Is Going On To Them, We Walk Dirt Concrete for Us, Nights Morning Liquids and Airs Waitings Dreams Nest Next Gargantuan Followings Apostrophe Upon Little Sky Die

Wishywashy, Leavings I saw, What It Matters, What It Cares, Person Pure Purple Colors wiping Actresses Acting Actors Make Home and Gun and Hellow Buying Water Last Purpose Waking 7-11, Mountain Forgot Multitude Never Besetting Never Succumbing

2 miniature dogs run around my raw gum lines

too many bloodless cellular dimensions of my WW Wake, wake field, wake forest, boat wwakes the whole wobbly ocean of Earth

The End