The news I get will tell me how to live. I do not know how to go outside and live like a person. We need fulfillment and excitement. Just have fun, is that an Answer. I will most likely not solve much of anything talking to myself, An animal, Are we humans living correctly? Animals have hard lives, even before humans began disturbing natural orders, Is it all random and meaning less, Look at much smaller things, that still matter, Do you want to be happy, What is happy? It is a feeling, It is when the lions are rolling and smiling Laughing playing, Moaning from sex. Living truly. I see your pores you have black hairs, Why do I watch TV? Why would I think you are disgusting, Athletic Animals, NO, Fit, Healthy, Strong, Capable, Feared animals. What goes on in an animals head? Why does it matter? Those moments he said, make life worthwhile, we have to try and work hard to extend our lives in order to reach those memorable pleasant life sustaining moments. Talking to myself I can find out things hidden in my head. Unravel and reveal, then I can show someone this thanks to a computer and Internet, They can see my questions, think of their own questions, Answer me, answer themselves.
Eat right and exercise, Why Am I frantic? Why did I want to type You referring to myself?
Are people animals, Biologically, Science Can tell Everything, But within This system of words there are places I cant go.
I want feelings I do not have right now. To feel good, other people don’t complain so much, they get things done, Don’t question so much.
In just going, In just doing what you do, You find things you did not expect to find and they make you happy, You do not need to look really hard, Good life comes to you, when you travel, go, eat, walk, see, eat,
What is this song? This is just something to do, Why is it a tragedy? Who cares for me right now? Well.
There is someone in need. I am not in need. I Am greedy and selfish.
Is there a perfect human? Why all this this worry?
I am trying to grasp something too big.
I really hope to find a balance. To find a reason and purpose, a steady life goal, to feel useful peaceful. A calm.
After this can I have concrete details. I look at a dune, Blue sunset dusk. I want a sunrise too. Always sleeping at sunrise. The sun don’t go down. Within our solar system it is the earth that is moving. All this scientific discovery that we take for granted, I might want to be a scientist. Observe the empirical universe. Learn other languages. Answer powerful simple encompassing questions. Be useful find a use for my time, Grow flowers, Food, Medicine, Passion, Spark interest in children, Give pleasure, sexual, taste, aesthetic, eyes.
What should I be doing right now. What Is everyone else doing right now.?
