September Second passing By :}}}

The news I get will tell me how to live. I do not know how to go outside and live like a person. We need fulfillment and excitement. Just have fun, is that an Answer. I will most likely not solve much of anything talking to myself, An animal, Are we humans living correctly? Animals have hard lives, even before humans began disturbing natural orders, Is it all random and meaning less, Look at much smaller things, that still matter, Do you want to be happy, What is happy? It is a feeling, It is when the lions are rolling and smiling Laughing playing, Moaning from sex. Living truly. I see your pores you have black hairs, Why do I watch TV? Why would I think you are disgusting, Athletic Animals, NO, Fit, Healthy, Strong, Capable, Feared animals. What goes on in an animals head? Why does it matter? Those moments he said, make life worthwhile, we have to try and work hard to extend our lives in order to reach those memorable pleasant life sustaining moments. Talking to myself I can find out things hidden in my head. Unravel and reveal, then I can show someone this thanks to a computer and Internet, They can see my questions, think of their own questions, Answer me, answer themselves.

Eat right and exercise, Why Am I frantic? Why did I want to type You referring to myself?
Are people animals, Biologically, Science Can tell Everything, But within This system of words there are places I cant go.
I want feelings I do not have right now. To feel good, other people don’t complain so much, they get things done, Don’t question so much.
In just going, In just doing what you do, You find things you did not expect to find and they make you happy, You do not need to look really hard, Good life comes to you, when you travel, go, eat, walk, see, eat,
What is this song? This is just something to do, Why is it a tragedy? Who cares for me right now? Well.
There is someone in need. I am not in need. I Am greedy and selfish.
Is there a perfect human? Why all this this worry?
I am trying to grasp something too big.
I really hope to find a balance. To find a reason and purpose, a steady life goal, to feel useful peaceful. A calm.

After this can I have concrete details. I look at a dune, Blue sunset dusk. I want a sunrise too. Always sleeping at sunrise. The sun don’t go down. Within our solar system it is the earth that is moving. All this scientific discovery that we take for granted, I might want to be a scientist. Observe the empirical universe. Learn other languages. Answer powerful simple encompassing questions. Be useful find a use for my time, Grow flowers, Food, Medicine, Passion, Spark interest in children, Give pleasure, sexual, taste, aesthetic, eyes.
What should I be doing right now. What Is everyone else doing right now.?

Lame Lime

It is a long time ago, sir. A sir with a madame's lady part down below. SHe want to be friends with hermaphrodites, and I understand, I doo too. SOme mixture person, my mind mi world comepletely raped and discarded upside down. i wish

I had sexy dreams last night and my ass is sweaty. On Face book on AOL im. Everybody knows no one needs to know, no one understands.

Playing magic the gathering and pokemon, Watching mighty boosh.

It was difficult to make myself clean yesterday. clean the bathroom. It must be sunday.

Ive grown into patterns. I dont see how I can break them. My mom is my social life. I never want to do something. I am reluctant to be involved in my life. Nothing is real to me, and when I sense my life is becoming even a little real, I have to get out, it is overwhelming.

I'm sorry to someone.

I do not want to be in that position.

I might ride bike today, but mostly I have no plan. I am afraid I will not want to go to school again. I should just read.
I thought about destroying my moustache yesterday.
I did eat cinnamon oatmeal, and I will eat something else before too long.

Helllo, I am getting out.

I may not see you, Just arrival , depart my way

Goodbye me.
. seeja

A memoir

I am back in the den. On pandora.com I heard Lucky Charms by the Moldy Peaches. It is 8:14 AM.
It is dim in this room, and the sunlight is a god. Words can kill you and bring you back to life. I might have schizophrenia, because that's what the medication he gave me is for.
The unicorns are a nice band, and it is the name of my new hair cut.
Time passage has an interesting effect on me. Really no effect. The clock has a small effect. I want to talk with Einstein, but there are a million people still alive that would have a stimulating conversation with me.
I paced last night, and I eventually went to sleep. I did none of my Bio paper, I listened to Pandora and looked at Nikki and Naked girls.
I want to start a band called Tiger Woman. We will have a theme and mascot and style.
I have no idea what I want to do every second. It is hard to live in ones own body all the time. I feel sorry fo people who can't sleep. I have been losing sleep.
Kimya is amazing. Si is Bob Dylan.

I will see her in 5 and half to 6 hours. I hope you are reading this, and I hope it makes you feel a little better.
Going to a show to see Crystal Castles tonight. I hope that goes well. The sunlight on the brush is amazingly beautiful, the morning light, at 8:26. I wish I was bleeding. I don't cut myself and never have. I don't know what I am about to do. I am predictable and average though.

Oh yeah, I just said that out loud, I need to write some poems about Easter and foreign countries.
I am excited but I cannot do anything, but I am alive so I guess I am doing all right.

I will see her and that is all that matters right now i guess :+ P::[] :} bye {; uhdu jh hi

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I just wan t o type a normal blog.

I like to listen to Animal Collective a lot. It makes me happy to think of someone reading this, I love you are a beautiful and Special Person and You are capable of anything and are making the world better every second!!

I hope no child killers and rapers are reading this tho.
You all should stop what you are doing and atone and pay back everything you can to the people you have negatively affected. Get some professional help, life is really nice with a good attitude. After you are all better, tho, know that you are special and worth everything.

OK. I need to write a long ass research paper. I need to remember that no one is better or worse than anyone, or species, no one can be sterotyped and no one or anything is as it seems and things will always change.

Washington square memories. I walked in by dads old apartments last week, i think.
I saw an old guy at a bus stop, i thought about him being dad, I missed dad, and I thought about how old he would be, and I missed him later, i miss him now.. i thought about how strange and wonderful it would be to see him again.

I do not know if I can continue to go to Saint Edwards. I am a rambling shell of a humdrum humanoid like figure skating shadow of a rock on a tree birthing a light of heat and cold universal truth that sheds skin all so runny and funny and dripping and sloppy and from a dice point that awakes children of growing funguss and moss,,, eating ice cream that floats in side and out side,,, , ,, ,, and music in the moring of a quiet house and n atureee sittting patiently waiting out side and we alll dont even know its grand plan :}}}

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Here is a my secresst of god awful plan

I am going to steal a boat and hikack it and jack the high priest of al queada

He will explodde at my finger tips and from then on then the ocean will be a dent in the circle of the tides. I will KIll a fish throw it high into the air, if it remains in tact i will shoot a spark then it will bloom into a dozen or moore treees that will sprout schools in the vacinity

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This is fun, Why not.

I just realised that people miight read this and now I am afraid to put things in here. I wanted people to know what I think. Now that I am not bent on lsing everything, I am more cautious, I started taking Lexapro yesterday, Tim took it, Sorry Tim!! Haha God damn, Modest Mouse , Beck!! I am very happy,. I saw nikki before she left today, Only she has not left maybe

Me and Pat have been watching the first season of SNL,,,, bab bbah ba :}

I like that nikki now knows where my house is. I want to go back to st. eds.
I hope I dont flunk out, and am not allowed back. :} Bahh, Gosh Cake Is swelllllll, the band, he just said.

The Band is a good Band. Me play frisbee today.

I want to say, I don't dislike everything on the radio.... :}

This godam Cat Face.... is soooooo Cuuuute.. . I love it, god damn, she needs to see once, and so does everyone........ sooooooooooooo Prettttttyyyyyyy!!! Oh
Im almost too happy for my own gooood, defiantely too happy for anybody elses good.

Eat Huney Bunches of Oats TM.

Godam Commercials and popular things make me sad sometimes and peoples lives. We need to see what is bad, so we can make it better, and not only care about our own happy small lives.

Morphine is like Waits. I am always worried about twhat people think of me, even when there is no one but myself to judge me.

It's funny to think about how we don't know whats real when I look at my finger and there are two of them... :}}}}}}

Ok just think about that then do something else,,,, moderation baby,,,, see me later bye bye
I lovwe youuuuuuu

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What I do

My bones hurt.
I walked 15 miles yesterday.
I wanted to go to Mount Bonnell.
I got about 2 miles away and gave up.
I did not know where it was at the time.
I was gone for about 5 hours.
When i got back I bought a Texas Sunrise at Meadows Coffee house.
I had some dreams last night. I took about ten minutes to write them down and was late for Computer class. I took the bus back part of the way yesterday. just down congress. I was so freakin tired. I went to sleep about ten or so last night. i slept till eight. then reset my alarm for nine and dreamed again.
It is tuesday. I dont know what to do.
i guess i will go now.
It is kind of grey today.
My plant is okay i guess.
I gotta go maybe something blog.
I hope you are happy.
I will be back someday.
bye bye {:

To the World

Dear World,

My name is Greg. That is really my name. I am not lying to you!

That first paragraph was a little bit awkward. Now I am just going to be cool.
Impossible. Haha, you might guess I am quite insane.

I talk to people that are not around. I hardly ever talk to people who are around.

Trees are better people. I want to elect one to the office.

Nobody has seen a flying cougar. I think because there has never been one. Except Pumaman.

I am eating chicken and sweet potato fries. Earlier I heard Two-Headed Boy Part 2 by Neutral Milk Hotel.

I like The Meadows Coffee House, all the girls there have short hair. I like short hair on girls. It was not really short… but kind of.

I have stopped eating and the food is getting colder. I drank an iced vanilla latte, that’s why I went to the coffeehouse.

I started writing in my journal, it is getting very full, but I stopped to type an email to my mom. She has already replied. I read it and I cried. She did not really make me cry, but really I can find any reason to cry and I hold it back a lot. Expressing myself usually makes me cry, and I quite enjoy it sometimes.

I am terribly afraid to cry in front of people though.

My dorm is kind of depressing now. I spend a lot of time alone in here, and it is very messy. My sheet has come off my bed, but last night I slept on the bare mattress.

A pet cockroach would be nice. I do think they are gross, but I think a lot of people are gross too, like myself.

I do not believe there is anything wrong with anybody. I try to be totally objective, like a movie. I relate too much to movies, and it makes reality less real.

Kill, I want to kill, Kill me Kill you, Kill everyone, Here I am just expressing myself

I like to play tennis. I have never killed anyone, but I do not want to. It is pretty intense.

I dreamed up a way I might die a little bit ago. I like to take things to the extreme. I spill my coffee I drop my food My hat blows off My clothes get ripped off I fall down naked and roll into the grass down a hill a tiny thunderstorm hits me a fungus grows over me im infected head to toe my insides are stretching wild animals attack me insects swarm me people gather laugh spit and defecate on me then I painfully rip apart and burst in a big mess pile then that’s the end an interesting way to die.

I need to do some house cleaning. I want to talk to someone.

I want to go get some tea I will do that then maybe do some work Hah yeah right, I want a Bycicle,

See ya later World, keep it cool haha global warming, If we kill the polar bears at least kill some bigot capitalists too, bye !! ! ( ;

Sexy M Destiny

The M stands for Mister ;}
I like to stand on my foot. Or both.
On today I have a foot, of yards in the meadow, I'll check that out right now, goddamnit
On tomorrow, I heard the say Im in the last line for macaroni pizza dolls for the sunshine I heard

I'm on fire tonoy. Tony Award winners such as Frank Gustavo Have seen me on the television film called Betty and All her Gracious Bloody Minor League Munkey Faced Minions In the Sad Onery Night Time Land Of all WOnder and Mystery for tomorrow and today to be seeken out the in yard of the fourth showman ..... then it just ends like that and no one comes back for the time that engrid specified at the time bandit meeting last saturday at noon i wasn't there but i thought I was anyway thats how I was seen By the Many One dieters that I feel are then they are in me forget the frree cheese I set out a Mouse has eaten my Rice and The Great Barn Door Is Sideways For Once More

Bette Midler, I wonder If she got my message, It was weird

I think I said the end was combing my hare on Sast rentfro form ing egg salads im a drafty eggloo

ASk me again, I forget.... Im okay Toosaday!! :] :
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New Post

I want this to look and sound pretty. I bet all of my 27 profile views are by myself. I have no reason for making a new post other than I have not made a post in quite some time. Time passes me by.
Autosaving is neat. I wish I were not so incredibly boring.

It has been a year and I don't have much to add. Reading my other posts, I realised that I probably have not changed much. I have not experienced much. I don't remember much.

This little solar powered green head waving buddy of mine is super pretty in the sunshine now.
He looks so happy. and of course it is male. I hope I make some friends. You can't die if you want to. I had granola this morning. I have only eaten four cookies since then. I should get some more eat. My global studies class is all about food. I would like to go out to eat with those people again. And not have to pay for it, that is nice.

Sometimes on campus here at St. Ed's it looks like there is no one else here. There will be a whole section or area where I can't see any human life. I guess I like my classes and it's pretty easy so for because it's only the third day. I have already gone for two walks. One was down Eastside to Oltorf and back. And last night i walked around the campus. I want to go eat from the vegetarian line tonight.

I should type some truth that I have found out about the human condition. Or some personal wish or dream of mine. Or some lofty plan.

I swallowed my gum in Global Issues class. I had been chewing it before and I was sitting there and I had nothing to spit it in, and I didn't even think about getting up. It slowly dissolved in my mouth, then became soft and small enough to break apart and swallow. Then I said about twenty words, maybe thirty or forty. I like Suicide girls.
I heard that most people on average say a few thousand words a day. I probably don't say a thousand. Maybe not even close.

Some guy is throwing something into a tree outside my window. I think he got something stuck. Anyhow, I am going to pursue another facet of my dimensions. Good later Honeys and Hombres. This is Gregory Wredberg signing out. ill be you later maybe something ... [: