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Simpleness

I feel responsible for other people's well being.

If I am undistracted, I feel guilty and that I cannot (and do not deserve to) enjoy anything if I am not helping someone else enjoy something.

I want to volunteer with a charity thing about teaching and basic needs and beauty and initiative.

I want to create art, like words and music and visuals, but I worry and feel bad that it will not do any good and it is not worth the time and resources spent to sustain me through the creating. I worry that my instinctual creating is wrong, and maybe I really need to be helping to produce healthy food for as many people in need as possible or helping to provide clean water or shelter or education...

So I want to volunteer and feel like I am making a good difference to people and doing it creatively and artfully.

Aaron is focused on laying a foundation of understanding that will lead humanity to significant improvement maybe 7,000 years down the road.
I think he is interested in humanity surviving as long as possible in the best conditions possible.

I am listening to Gregory Alan Isakoz. I like that his name is Gregory is Gregory like mine.

I like the softness and simpleness of the words and sounds too.

Spiegal im Spiegal

I was going to work at noon. I was listening to KMFA and Spiegal im Spiegal was playing. I recognized it, but I didn't know what it was. I was at the stoplight at I35 on Stassney facing east. I closed my eyes to listen for a second or two. I felt that I saw ghosts of images of the scene around me imprinted on my dark vision, especially a white SUV at the stoplight a little in front of me. It seemed the image was moving toward me then away from me. I opened my eyes and thought of this feeling. As I drove on the 35 feeder, I imagined moving forward on a fantasy landscape, accelerating past things, plants, signs, buildings, whatever. The ground is yellow and flat, like a Simpsons' desert. There is a castle (Cinderella) or a city (Emerald) (or Taj Mahal or Eiffel Tower or everything) on the horizon. Even though I am speeding forward, the horizon gets further away slowly, and the castle or city gets smaller more and more slowly, but never disappears, because it's an asymptote, and you move forward so fast you can't recognize what you're rushing past, and soon you're just comforted by speed and infinity.   ...

I wanted to see animation of this idea. I thought of getting online and searching for something like it or putting the idea on a message board so that an artist could find it and do it. I wondered if people do that, and if someone did my idea, would they let me know so I could see it. Set to Spiegal im Spiegal of course.

The opposing unpleasant virtue, love and hate and kill and love, love hate kill love.

Famous Females

Gillian Jacobs

Michelle Williams (Actress)

and in no particular order,


Rebecca Hall

Scarlet Johannson

Raya Mudolf

Alicia Vikander

Mia Wasikovska

St. Vincent

Saoirse Ronin

Anne Hathaway

Eva Green

Emily Blunt

Alison Brie

Tina Fey

Amy Poehler

Sarah Silverman

Rooney Mara

Kate Mara

Tilda Swinton

Carey Mulligan

Regina Spector

Penelope Cruz

Salma Hayek

Rose Byrne

Jessica Chastain

Emma Stone

Emily Mortimer

Brie Larson

Mary Elizabeth Winstead

Kelly MacDonald

Julianne Moore

Evangeline Lily

Margot Robie

Emma Watson

Grimes

Lorde

Emily Watson

Hope Davis

Courtney Barnett

Abigail Spencer

Adelaide Clemmons

Carrie Coon

Katherine Waterson

Kate Tempest

Felicity Jones

Natalie Portman

Janelle Monae

Zoe Kravitz

Thandie Newton

Emelia Clarke

Judy Greer

Sarah Barthel

Erin Timony

Gibi

Rachel Weisz

Elizabeth Moss

Kat Edmonson

Thomasin McKenzie

Vicky Krieps

Lily Gladstone