Hi, Internet.
I am at home again alone. I am listening to The Books, The Way Out. I am enjoying! I am joyful.
Also I wanted to write because I wanted to send Julie a text asking her how everything was going, but the I thought of how she was in school and I also thought of Ranisha and the same for her, BUT the agitation arose when I thought of sending them the same message at the same time, then comparing my feelings for them. I've thought that I love Julie very much and also find her very attractive, and I like Ranisha a lot and like spending time with her, but I don't think I could be half as attracted to her. And then that makes me feel sorry for her, a little guilty just for feeling less love toward her, because a large part of it is their appearences, and I would rather not be superficial. It may be that Julie's personality is even more attractive to me because of how she looks. It is too bad to think that I wouldn't love her as much if I found her less attractive. I guess it is. Their manners of speaking are also parts of their appearences to me. From what they say and from their facebook profiles, I get a sense of their personalities. I shape them based on my experiences. It's just that I would rather lay next to Julie than Ranisha at this point.
Sometimes I am attracted to Aaron. and I think of touching him. I've even imagined him naked. Sometimes I have homosexual fantasies.
I am eating almonds, raw. Rawlmonds. SOmetimes their skin tastes bitter, but their meat is sweet.
Oh well, Way Out is over.
I made some poetry and pictures.
It is 1:10 PM Middle of May Two Thousand Eleven AD
When I was watching Thor in the theater, I thought it was 2010 and was a bit surprised to remember it is 2011.
It's so late, in the years. I am 21 years old, halfway through my 22nd year... on Earth. Yep, I live on Earth. Sometimes I think it is not much use to think of Earth as a planet in the universe. It is useful to think of earth as a place to grow. Grow vegetables, plants, which animals eat and get eaten by bigger animals then people eat some of those animals along with some plants, and some die and get eaten by smaller animals and by the earth so that it can grow more things.
And people's minds grow figuratively. They gain knowledge and make smart decisions ideally.
People are different than animals. I might think so. I think Aaron would say Yes for sure.
Books are still good and still going.
It's never done, never finished, nerver over. !Hah
It's actually only 1:11 now; I am looking at different clocks.
OPaY! I am done for now, Goglo, Be you later.
