Wednesday, July 31, 2019

Wednesday, July 31, 2019

Half an Everything


Havin' everything

I been listening to a lot of Bill Wurtz

I played him on Spotify for my mom driving to Austin yesterday to see Ann at Zach Scott

It was very good

I almost cried and i laughed

Wurtz blows my mind like St Helens

...... . ... . . .          .

Monday, July 29, 2019

You're a real person

That's nice

I am listening to someones and Music:

Songs by Faye on Spotify:

Screams and Dreams

Cruel World

Hope

Trigger


Can any one be more perfect ?

What is perfect ?



I wanted to type something about Pretty Women

I forgot

Oh well

All is well

Later

Smokey

Skomey

John's Son

Jesus

Jo Seph

and Marie


oh yeah,

I want to know how pretty women make or keep themselves pretty and

if and how and why they are happy and comfortable and ful-fulled . . . . .










Our universe is made of odd cells .

Cosmos , Multi - Realities - All That Is or Can Be

Every Old Wild Orange Cell

of Us , Skies , Lands , Skird , Lives :

the Everything that is , was , will be , or could be .


I was leaving the Target Great Land Parkin' Lot

with Mom

meeting

Kit and Lorena .

Stuff and Snacks

-     Water Whatever   -


Faye   -  Screams   and     Dreams


Me  -   I   guess you fell down all of the Sudden

After  the   tension   left   your   body



-

-  -

-   -   -








Everyone     I    Love     Looks    Exactly    Like     You


Do You Aassuummee

I   Love   What   I   Study

I   Study   What  I   Love


A   Monster - Ologist


A  Kind    Giving    Satanist


What     Is     a     World     ?


Can    You   See    or   Feel     Space  or  Time

Can  we  name every  Sense

can   we    always   human


I   Will   Love  You

-  Soon

You Are always perfect

You have always been perfect

You ' LL  always  Be   Perfect

O.K.

The    Time   Is     Now


To  End

By,

Make it





Freeing Feeling _ Write ( in ) on


      I said , homie , do not Please to Court

a Lady Beyound the cum - Infested  Holy

    Gathering of Minstrels and Semen Cake

  Flow,er indi Vidual   Socratastee Freeze

   Open Season on L.A. Park Free Zone

   Happ'n Stancing on Under  Penis Grave -

   Swallows   Happy   Reethem on Jamaica

 and LoNG Island  Slander  Hope  +  Freedom.

Period . . . . 






















On GMA , He say , Play of the Day . - Michael

I say , Playtex , Playtime for Bongoes

and His Breathing Hormones .


Juan     Pleasant     Hormone      Custodian


Raise your race horse to the Science Scheme ,

Flowting, blowting, knowing what you mean .

Sunday, July 28, 2019

Do You Think This Is Real , You Cannot Cry Right Now

"
it is getting so i do not care as much , like Aaron said , can only really care about what really matters or means most to me
                                                                      "

Poem:

Please forget my erected established Buildin'

the Glass the Shaft the Lake

i am open to the possibilities

of never being A-Wake . . .

Please , please me and all my Obsession

               the Meat falls off

      there is a Button to take off . . .

Jesus the Christ All Mighty

Asmrrequests Summer self care

Lovely loveliest

Dead brother

I drove home alone and thot that someine we know, someone close is going to die in the next 9 months, before May 2020. It's been long since our family's been affected by some kind tragedy, People get hurt, People get sick, and people die.

We are connected to tens of people.

People get old and weak, can't think and can't move well or adjust to the new mutations of life on earth or beyond.....
And
What
Not
Ever

Later

Ever Being

The emd

Love

You


Saturday, July 27, 2019

Pro Pro Con Con - coco coconuts

Pro con or con pro

Affirm the negative or negate the affirmative

Action always begets the best Results


I am pro pro and con con


We all love Beginners and Luck

Now a black waxy tiding leaves on all of our perspective



so you know This / That would be possible

I had a Region Once

Abjections

Conclusions

Failures

Junvenations

Organizations

Underestimates

Ultimately Understand

There you are

It was always you

I got U

U got Us

God

Felt

Pen

Noble

Profess

Art

Skank

A leg

Surity

Purity

Dink bores hopefully into Karmic Karisma

Goodly

Eventually

Mercifully

LoneLily

Purposefully

Reality to RemembeR

Trustingly

Zane washes

Xiley's back

On Vera's birthday


The End

And You

         like me






I  LeaRn  to  smell   His  butter

For  Free

Re . Mark . Ably . Un . Fit


Anyone Whose

                                 A Friend of Mine

Demand   Glowts

supply  sews  rooted   toes

smoke Lozenge

sweating Lodges

Humanize a Cost

Effective Lands    Save    Nous



Friday, July 26, 2019


Hey, There

My name is Good Greg Wredberg. I'm an old 80 year-old Mother and oo oo do you like the things I love?

Sunday is Monday if Tuesday is Not

Hey, Asian People Are

Cooler than I


I just watched the Baskets episode
 " Common Room Wake "

I love life

I drank some port . . sweeeeee

Love Possible

Court

Sanction

- -

mum n i watched downsizin ; for 2 nd time

1st was 4 my 28 th b day , alamo spice wood springs

i loved it , more than most , real fun , hope , science


it is 335

i am tar ' d d     [ t i r e d ]

nite night

lover . . .


Thursday, July 25, 2019

Blind Light Harmonies Discography



Band :  Blind Light Harmonies

1st album : Limitless Edition

Tracks:

1. A Limitless Addition

2. DemoCats and RePelicans

3. What Do You Think of the End?

4. Brown Shoe Clean Shirt

5. An Addiction

6. Bisect You Like a Wild Pigeon

7. Untitled ... [ Yes ]

8. The Limitless Limit




Blind Light Harmonies

2nd album :

Oh Melody


1. Spoken Word Hieroglyphs

2. I Love Your Police

3. I Love Your Trial

4. Carrie Out

5. My Name Is Okay

6. And Stacks of Bibles




B L H   album 3

The Most Difficult Piano Lessons


1. I Bought a Grave

2. No One Special

3. Speaks for Me

4. This Is Actually Family Oriented

5. I Woke at Night

6. To Travel Earth and Sky All Day

7. Play to Get Better





B L H 4

The Strongest Argument for Human Equality

1. Pansexual Liberation Front

2. Familial Species Reconnaissance

3. Fully Customizable Soul Self

4. There Is No Property

5. We All Belong to Scientific Law

6. I Am a Cat

7. Trust EVERYONE



Blind Light Harmonies , 5th and final album :


Bernard Lonergan Heuristics


1. God's

2. Gorgeous

3. Geometric

4. Gyroscopic

5. Globes

6. At the Beach Post Office














Blind Light Harmonies , 5th and final album :


Bernard Lonergan Heuristics


1. God's

2. Gorgeous

3. Geometric

4. Gyroscopic

5. Globes



[   6 .    at the beach post office     ]

B L H 4

The Strongest Argument for Human Equality

1. Pansexual Liberation Front

2. Familial Species Reconnaissance

3. Fully Customizable Soul Self

4. There Is No Property

5. We All Belong to Scientific Law

6. I Am a Cat

7. Trust EVERYONE



B L H   album 3

The Most Difficult Piano Lessons


1. I Bought a Grave

2. No One Special

3. Speaks for Me

4. This Is Actually Family Oriented

5. I Woke at Night

6. To Travel Earth and Sky All Day

7. Play to Get Better















Blind Light Harmonies

2nd album :

Oh Melody


1. Spoken Word Hieroglyphs

2. I Love Your Police

3. I Love Your Trial

4. Carrie Out

5. My Name Is Okay

6. And Stacks of Bibles







Can't stop addicted to the shin dig

Got a get a gig

I can't sleep

No matter

If it hurts ...

I just fun fumble jumbled no wonder

I just love her and her and she and her husband and her family and friends and 46 of the girls and boys and Enbies .... Inbe tweens

Always too much

Perfect

Thanks

Lisa and 12 Western United States


Fine Wish

Laser Wash

Wine Fish


If I get or feel too Old

To live how I Wish,

Please put me out of This

Existence.


Reasonable wish

Wish to be Reasonable

Ever possible existence

Give Time Your Wish


Warmer Weather

You can be Any one's

Miracle Wish

ApocaFish

Bird in Your Eye


Ever Will Surprise


Got a Go

Always some time . .

Wednesday, July 24, 2019


Band :  Blind Light Harmonies

1st album : Limitless Edition

Tracks:

1. A Limitless Addition

2. DemoCats and RePelicans

3. What Do You Think of the End?

4. Brown Shoe Clean Shirt

5. An Addiction

6. Bisect You Like a Wild Pigeon

7. Untitled ... [ Yes ]

8. The Limitless Limit





Tuesday, July 23, 2019

Catching Downsizing on Midday TV, I'm Halfway


The young dark-parts Woman at the happy Happy party

whispers in my mouth - I wanna fuck your ear-hole.

i look at her south-westerly,

so she yells at me - Smell my tit, nipple digger -

turns her cold right shoulder and runs out of the windows.


The widening world opens like a Super Nova, deploying

satisfied industrial food complex customer-employees.

Christ of Walts opens a lot of old closed doors, wood or other

concrete plastics, on a day that used-to-be sunny, for fun or

other seemin'ly inconsequential "time space interracial lesbian porn."


I'm gardening ;

How tu help :

Be god ('s)

U.

} no syllable {


T
h
e

Ends.




Here is more

Of the In Me


Jasaon State Ham on Good Morning America

Hungover or sick from bad living - thinking

Dead In Side, be side Helen Mirren


Wish THis were-hell


Gibi ASMR , you are a monster ; i'm just joking

You are Satam

and Satan

Your face, teeth et cetera, Colors, Make Up

You cannot make this up


My Body, Fiery Blow Up Dolls

I saw I say I see, THe blue-ish sky, my holding head, mi miracles of deciding dead and Foreign

Intrusions of late Latte Burger, Death, Beginnings,


My mom, my fam, My Lovely Internet Friend, THey know not, I DO never really know


Here my poem, Dying  :  :

  -  Rapture, FOr Healing Blood Skin Bones Muscles Hearing Sight Pain Nerves Nervous

Worry, Unto Death, Unto Fear, Onto the love of all Two People Friends, feeling too good, Too Bad, A Bed, bodies, words, screens, fabrics, memories, plans

Ok really   -

"   The Wind on High

     The Low on Below the Self in side You

"

Bye    End






I'm an older man

     Scenic Judgment

Lost Sleep 8 am A Series of Sentences and stuff


We must attempt to extend the utmost courtesy to the genuinely phobic.

Of a Fundamentally Different Animal Totality

Please ask me out of bed.

He was the only one to show the cold earth kindness.

The Cheap Ranges of the West Heading Wind


My God we're beginning

Why not take a risk? We can all approve . . .

Let's Coffee


The End

I don't know how to call you Shrimp

Something with a gerund maybe

Monday, July 22, 2019

Jesus Fuck

"
    My father is a virgin

    God is a virgin
                                             "


Is God everything? How can God be everything?

Things can take infinite forms. Infinite change.


We try to be God,

All-knowing

All-powerful

All-caring

All-loving

Eternal

All-Good


I... I don't... I don't run for school board in the Maldives.

Sunday, July 21, 2019

Dog Banquet

Gottdam , Girl Friend

Things i say to
Amy

A you
Amy

My You

Your Me


Fac Ebook

Ins Tagra



The Endin'

i got 800 dollars ! i need 800 dollars !


I love everyone. Everyone is waiting for me.

Everyone waits with me.

Crosby Stills Nash - In the Garage Weezer


Come on, Everyone.

Press Yourself

Ex Yourself

I am your ex

I am an ex You


Ignore Ourselves or Explore Ourselves

Implore Ourselves


" You can't Eat this View "

- -






You go to lunch today


You go to lunch tomorrow


- Repeat

- Repeats

  the Beat

singin'

rhythmin'

mantrain'

meditationin'

potatoin'

slurfin'

wishin'

hoppin'

johnin'

jonesin'

hoopin'

hootin'

groovin'

proovin'

sanin'

brainin'

troothin'

mightymorphin'

teenagemutatin'

ninjaturtlin'


mindin'

findin'

solvin'

savin'

bravin'


Every one today

Every one tomorrow . . .


drawin'

out

waitin'

timin'

gregin'


lewisin'

carrollin'


winnin'

begginnin'




Saturday, July 20, 2019

Los Osos Son Muy Peligrosos


that'll be my Ayula, Queen Among Bears Elder Dragon Highlander deck name

if i ask a brother to help me get one

. . . .

10:30 . . . 11:30 . . am


                too many tired people

Alis   Tony   Fran   Bork   Oscur   Time

Simun   Lois   Luis   Luoise   Lovisa    .

In 4:44 The Morning A Horny Girl

Like Jalec Bald Win, Boast a Giant

Frame Work for Super Micro Processing

Accelerators to Pop a Levitation of

Science Facts and figures today, bro.

       important fish to beginyourday crying

don't kill the doctor

           i got    i got   2  babies ....

keep your shorts up.


                       That's good.





Friday, July 19, 2019

Poem Sun


  0,736  P M

  I got Rays and days, Fun is dice between

Never Float On becuz' u got to Fire the

Dire Menace, B'cuz every Neme sus

is a Fellow BeDutanté ; I was fool

enuff , bellowing Far Seek benine or

Suddenly Afore Mentioning... Savers BeLie.

Crunch time for a Post Much Muck Spangle --

Bush the [F scribble circles] Most, I said, It's fine,

it's good, it's good, It's better, It's best.

  Be a Force / I must Forget - Eg Ast th0




Thursday, July 18, 2019


What's that? : the supernal happiness of a quiet death.


[ i posted that to facebook in 2013 or 2010? ]

[ i thought i wrote that , but i guess i got it from the example sentence of a 'supernal' definition web page ]

[ i thought maybe they got it from me ]

Prescribe Blindness


School Boats


Pre-scripted

Cannibalism


Punting Bourgeois

Blanket Statement


Nearsome bags of chips or crisps

At the HEB grocery store

My head is slowly exploding

over 10 years .

I'm in the middle .

Wednesday, July 17, 2019


  8   p.  m.

the Last Day    of   The  Year

,

Simple minds

 carrie   books

to other pages

of folk lore Scripture.


he's a taaallll guuuyyyy ;

no -o-n-e loooks aro-un-d the- co-rn-er-  -o-f thee eyyyyyyyessss.




Tuesday, July 16, 2019


Her Bal Tea

Melba Toast


Jerry Brown

a Gerry Brown

Jerry Bruckheimer

Jingle Heimer


Courtney Melba

Barn Net

Welsh Melbourne


My name is John

I'm a John

[ Safe House : The Crow ]


Single Mood Scattante


It is a question . . . of










Monday, July 15, 2019


Tequila and Diet Cherry Pepsi

2 red wines , 13 % blend , 7 % Roscato


It's Not Called Show-Friends - Harmontown


just to emphasize my Eternal position ,

i

don't

know .



Leave  y

are you still  a  . .  good guy?








No Ticket Out - Dear Hank and John


Coolness does not exist

it is just less heat

 [ more lite than heat ]


Either a wonderful memory or a really good story

and

Either divorce or death









Sunday, July 14, 2019

a jumble

jumple



RILVSEU

OO_O_ _ _

ROTPORC

_O_ _ _ _ _

TENKIEC

O_ _ _ _ _ _

ERBLDOA
_ _ _ O_ _ _

YDPAMRI
_O_ O _ _ _


They found the sweet bread offensive and in bad taste; they called it " _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ .






You can   do  nothing.

Everyone is a Zero ;

Every 0 is a 1

.

If it is okay ,

If it is in your head ,

It fits in your head . . .


   -  -  -

i am watching Oliver Tree on the H3 Podcast .

it is unbelievable .

it is like a dream ,

indescribable


and   a    bit   inane ,

asinine .

he reminds me of harmony korine.











S F O

Secrets of History


Queen Isabella - 8

Pocahontas - 10

Mary Shelley - 13

Emily Dickinson - 9

Eleanor Roosevelt - 6

Abigail Adams - 15


All day, every day.


All 16.

also had a son.

You get it.


till 14.



death at 46,

Some more than an hour




Saturday, July 13, 2019

Angelic Concert

       Concerted Angelicas


Friday, July 12, 2019

Rewrite Skoledi


Child of Lakshmi

Complacent in Sanity

Insane in Complacency

A Bad Structure

A New Night Sky


Feelings Are Old. Feelings Are Good.

Never thought I should do what I should


Never think I should be what I should




Thursday, July 11, 2019

: Peeps People . - A . - . Way - . -



Peeps   People   say

a lot of the-m Times

A Word that rhymes

like day

and way.

[ White Out Conditions - The New Pornographers ]

Half   of   half   the   days

Are  always  go  ing   away

all  ways

a Way




Wednesday, July 10, 2019


Mom and I went to a 4 pm Midsommar at Regal Westgate, Austin, Texas.

There was 1 other person in the theater, a guy sitting three or four seats to my left. Mom to my right. I wonder what her thought. [he thought]

Two young women came in over halfway thru, but I guess they realised they were in the wrong theater and left. Mom and I acknowledged the funny weirdness.

Midsommar , freeky and Disturbing.

What is Acceptable for us humans and Why? What is too much? What is too little?

I liked it - especially Dani, Florence Pugh. Mom thought it was stupid. We both liked the first half more.

We just saw episode 1 of Rebeckah Martinsson.

It's nice. The lead is good and good-looking.


I feel a lot of Something

I feel a little Everything


Look at me :

I work in a library.

I read comic graphic novel books

from noon to midnight,

then I sleep under The Stars,

like a next-door neighbor
.

The Hardest Two Days of Your Life

(our lives)

3 months before our dad died

1 month before 9/11.

I start 6th grade. . .


Free write -  I      Ol-blation the Magic

 Soul-Prospector  ate 33 gallons of

Rape Victums..   Some effluvian

Neck  boys  have  solid penis

holes  and  Neve  open  never Pots Pans

   ever holy beast Nectarine Swill

     Hog   NixxxPlumberBlush

over   the  next  99  sex  tuplets

I have    No  Retard  Love  I want

         New Power  ,  Nun Beat Sun


Tuesday, July 9, 2019

O the TV Shows


        The Articulate  Zimbabwean  Stallion

To go to
                 Read a
                                  Good Book

 "Everyone is doing great --- -  every one is good,

each one above me, each one below;

all are among me, Our Vital Viscera Function

The Ache of the Whole, The swirl of

constituents, I boil my soul alive bathe the

Moon ..     Angel green park, Wild Worrier."








           I        Just       Can't


Kill            Myself              Anymore

. Who . Cannot . Be . More . . Any


Who can't be more wrong

Who can be Any

?


You are gonna fuck Everyone    and Kill then too

mm m


You are gonna

fuck so much

You will never

die

   .    .    .   .      .

a song title


I like a good English letter

I like a good English word

I like making up things that are

Absolutely absurd.

I like to make Shit up

I like to make Fuck up

I like to shit and fuck


Pee Pee Willy Wonka, don't kiss me.

Pee Pee Willy Wonka, don't kiss me.

I'm a little boy on the horny moon.

So don't miss me, don't piss me, don't kiss me.


I like having ancient mechanisms

for discovering the Only True God.

HHis name is Willy WOnka Don't Kiss Me

Don't Piss Me

Don't Miss Me


Don't don't Don't


I wanna feel like a God, but

I'm a little gogolgolgodgodgod

Babfnboivnsaivhvpaseilvakh;bc.


Piles of Rice

Rice is good and rice is nice

Rice is a Good English Word

I like to make up English words


Racist. Don't follow the Sun anymore

* Burp * - - Excuse Us

The Son of the Son

The Sun is the Son

God of the Sun

God of the Son

I make my own fun

I make my own laugh

I want to feel like I don't need a life . . .

Raft.

I'm floating on the Misery of Eternal Humanity



Humanity's Eternity is the thing I need to live Beyond the Sunset by Hank Williams

Ever get the feeling?

Do you ever get a feeling?

I'm wondering. I wonder. Do I?


I want to see what you see in side of your eye

Balls . . .


Okay, that's the end of the song for now.

This song will continue when you grow up and find out.

Bye

By









Monday, July 8, 2019



Hi, Everyone,


I'm going to North Luxembourg and eating an apple.


Am I eating an apple on the way or when I get to North Luxembourg?


I can do two things

I can't do three things

On the Way: A Heart-Burstingly Friendly Visitation Day


Come on over

I love you

You know how to do this

You can do this . . . !

Elderly Homogenic Witch-Doctor Jellyfish

Their names from oldest to youngest: Heraclitus, Plato, Aquinas, (Bernard) Lonergan

They live in a low-earth orbit.

They thrive in water...



This is our next    cultural     revelation

artistic

narrative

fanstasy

media

franchise

The Year Before We Were Dead


I just said this to myself

I have to type this

Or  else  I  will   die   forever   again

Or  else  I  will   die   forever   again

Or  else  I  will   die   forever   again
Or  else  I  will   die   forever   againOr  else  I  will   die   forever   againOr  else  I  will   die   forever   againOr  else  I  will   die   forever   againOr  else  I  will   die   forever   again


There was something  Else

There  is   always  something  Else

God's Green Earth

God's Snowy Globe

God's White Water


K ... World


God's Health Care

God's Quick Works

God's Simple Word

This is just God

Asking us to please

Be more than careful.


Raising more than a child


S E V E N .  G R E E N .  L E T T E R S

Sunday, July 7, 2019

B. I. L. L. . B. A. I. R. D.


All of His

songs give a

Mysterious

                      Perfect

                                        Beauty

.

God's Blood



I'm .   proving.     improving


                       Home Made Washing Machine


how much

does

money

cost


                          Decadence

                                                        Descendance



    And   it   is   so   easy   to   make


Affectionist   versus    Perfectionist

Any    second   thoughts  ?

    and   now   for   the  final  clue

Last


  God    is    not

                                 An   Eager   Apologizer


Saturday, July 6, 2019

How A Still Lives - Perfect Eternal Love


How A Still Lives

                   A AA wake together at 6:01, 28 minutes pre Dawn.
K is peacefully awake as a film child, entertaining imagination. B was leaving, something semi important.
The internet connection was all but not existing.
So Greg, that is I, looks into A's eyes look into me. AA rubs back, neck.
She is inheaven....    As are we all . . . .
We are almost-ing.
Breathing deeply, staring longingly, knowingly, whispering occasionally words of Communion and gratitude . .
AA hops up throws off. We are  juice.
A minding sounds, says, What I Do is me, now and forever . .
She lays on hands.
AA takes care, glistening in the growing daylight.
We lock eyes. "Now" A
Be out once every second,  enough to wake the closest neighs.
AA and unison.
It is all Too Fucking Unbelievable . . .
How
More importantly Why
Am I typing this  ?

Chapter 2
We are like this
For 1 hour and 10 minutes, taking a minute break every 10 minutes.
An edge and wood floor.
AA and that half of the room.
She spaces times.
K wanders in and out, observing and learning. A makes comments and suggestions.
We all chat about our daily doing
and our hopes and dreams . . So much Everything

So at 7:15
AA and I nod to each other and
A "now"
Together we 3
AA and I , 22
As we slow down our Self
Minds overflow
We lie.
 aftershocks . . 10 minutes.
. . . .
We make plans.
K makes us all a wonderful breakfast.
We have a beautiful day
Perfect eternal love
Thank You
Amen

Friday, July 5, 2019


Possible pretty People

A doctor of Law ,   The Struggle to

Live Free.   I read  from  Anti - Slavery

International's   website .

I'm   worried   about   our
       emotional   health

I wonder how far it is to complete

Mental Freedom ,  Redemption

In their Songs ,  Their Voices ,

I spend more of my time with

People who share my blood ; I feel

their   DNA  code  when  they  look

in my eyes and when I hear their

Noise .



[ Probably from around 2015 or earlier ]


This is something we all want
A baby bird is on the wing of a jet liner
I saw the Sun rise over the clouds
I saw the Moon set
A woman gave birth yesterday
I have not seen my son yet

The captain corrected our course
We swerve around Winter Storms
I check the time on a Cell Phone
I add and subtract for Time Zones
I want her to be As Comfortable As Possible

I am Paring down the Differences
Pairs of people speak softly
A male laughs weirdly disrupting
A cough is an engine's sputtering

I try to help my Sister
I cannot fix the System
                                                        alone

I need held     [ Wo! typo! ]
                                I look out another same window

All of us need reflections

You Are a Fair and Wise Ruler





. . I . Like . Love . .


Present Progressive [ i mean Perfect ] Tense - My Patterns and Habits

Perfect Progressive Present

Hi, Donna. Thanks for having me . . . I hope you can help me (help myself).
I want to prepare for our therapy session. I "need" about 80% more self control. I need sleep; I keep staying awake to watch porn and stuff to arouse myself sexually, emotionally, etc.
i have sexual thots most of every day. it is interfering with other areas that i'd rather focus on. And really should.
I am (feel) guilty and shameful, or I feel almost as bad as I imagine it is possible to feel . . . maybe for a flash once a day, a few times a week. I fantasize of violence to myself or others or any random disturbing images/thots.
Almost every day it seems, for months, I've drank too much alcohol.
I eat bad food most of my life. I need more money if I will be responsible, more respectable. I should get a job.
I lie to my mom a lot.
My friend Aaron is the most important part of me, to me
probably

I wonder if coming to therapy is a mistake.
I wonder what I should do with my Life.
I am really tired.

I like (Love)
music, video, movies, books, Poems, People, Places, Words

Sometimes . . . I do not know how I   can   do any thing . . .  ^_^

Tuesday, July 2, 2019


Am I Registered to Children Dramatic


Ideal ideal


Lag   of    Boot

Wait Calm Wedding


The presidents are all too far to attend.

The rooves are all so tall now light bends.

The ponies left their hooves at home, no disguises.

At dawn we sleep our best again, no surprises.

Monday, July 1, 2019

My Mom's Boyfriend's Father's Girlfriend

Hope Leavenworth was born at 6:36 on March 13th 1992, on East Shore of Indian Land.

It is now 12:10, March 11th 2032, 11 minutes and 9 seconds before we met. On Saint Augustine . . . ever one waiting . . .

I was born at 15:01 on July 5th 2002, 21.56 miles SE of Elk Grass [ The Winners }

Near the Geographic Center of Indian Land,

we all had a day off.

This story takes Place during the 40 hours and 26 minutes leading up to Hope's 40th birth Anniversary . .

If We Could Never Be Them

I Want to Dedicate My Dedication