Tuesday, August 17, 2021
Confessions
Tuesday, August 17, 2021
i am obsessed with J K , km's daughter
she is lovely
on their instagrams
i am afraid of her . . . , [number] i think... i worry about myself
i worry i will keep getting worse
like a cliche , a dirty sad old man , but man seems too good a word
So, what should I do.
maybe I need a girl friend, lady friend, special friend, wife , spouse , partner . . .
I imagine every so often
I imagine renting a mountain cabin near vegas
A prostitute is my best bet
prostitutes need love too
i would love to marry one, even as she keeps working
it makes me horny too...
this is very confessional
i want a book to be printed. Like saint Augustine's Confessions , written by me , about me
my self... soul, relationship with jesus and the trinity
i feel that i could not feel this any more, any deeper
this connection
to myself.
It is like Pain. But also Heaven, and sometimes Hell. Like Perfect Absolute Divine Judgment
I feel light. Like caffeine
I forgot that i took an excedrin
Then I drank half a cuppa
coffee.
I really like myself.
Sometimes i hate myself more than anything
i think i am like Steppenwolf
Self- obsessed bourgeoisie
Resource Leech
Tick
Sponge
Parasite
Infection
Death - Collector
Hell - Baby
What is the worst case Scenario
How do i help people
The most people i can help ?
I wanna publish this, except censor the damning first confession ...
Later I love you.
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