1989
- i am conceived and Born on December 18th.
1992
- my family moves to Bastrop, summer I think.
1994
- Mom and Dad divorce, I do not remember.
Mom dates terry, I remember she gets angry at him once, she yells, Go home, after he accidentally drops a glass on the floor.
1996
- Mom and Terry marry
- Terry is fine, harmless, somewhat interesting
Dad remarries Adele
Generality
- i like Dad a lot sometimes, i don't like Adele most of the time.
- Brothers and I see Dad every other weekend and holidays
- I don't feel much except I like video games, other games, funny shows and movies
2000
- Family trip with Terry and Steven to Disney World, I remember a few good moments, a few bad, and a few dull ones
2001
- Trip to New York City on the weekend before September 11, 2001
- November, Dad dies of lung cancer
- School is a blackhole?
- Awkward, Uncomfortable, Stupid Social Life
- I try the trombone in 6th, 7th, and 8th grades.
- I sort of become self aware for the first time. having abstract thoughts, introspection
2003
- November, Terry dies of lung cancer
- lose touch with most of reality
2004
- Mom's Dad, Pampa Sid, dies
- Dad's sister, Tootsie, dies
- I love music a lot, of Montreal, Mates of State, Neutral Milk Hotel, others
- Don't care about school at all, want to sleep or watch movies
2005
- Spring break, School trip to Germany with teacher and three older students, mostly waste that experience, make a few nice memories, wider perspective of Earth
2006
- August, Tim goes to UT and gets an apartment with Patrick, so I only live with mom
- Kim, Ashley, and I go to concerts, Ghostland Observatory, of Montreal
- February, Date Kim for a few weeks, touch her chest above clothess, sad that we broke up
- June, start working at Tracy's Drive-In Grocery, sucking up time and money, saving some, very boring, want to quit, make a few nice memories and acquaintances
- Hang out with Ashley regularly
- Hang out with Mom and at home a lot, I get annoyed and sick of her sometimes, and I love her a lot sometimes.
2007
- Ashley dates John and we lose touch
- I don't really have friends
- Meet Nikki in German, I am the only German student above level 2. Our class goes to a German festival called Wurstfest and she and I bond
General High School:
Porn, Anxiety, Confusion, Self-Hatred, Overwhelming beauty makes me cry
Isolation, Youtube in the Den
Insane imagination, shrink at the world
2008
- August, I move to St. Edward's University,
- December, i Fail all classes because I stop going
2009
- Experiment with therapy and medication
- Journal
- February thru May, Meet Nikki again, hang out, she is the first person I kiss, we make out for hours, she gives me three blowjobs. Our last "date" is on Mother's Day and it's a weird roadside picnic. I feel that I love her more than anything but I feel more confused and unstable than ever
- Spring, Meet Aaron, hang out, talk a lot, share and connect like never before, Midnight Rooftop Poetry Club
- May, Move out of dorm, end weird relationship with living learning community, move into Kit's new house, kind of interesting times with brothers
- August, Move into Mom's house
- September, Start seeing Stacy Watkins. I'm infatuated with her. Go to her for 6 years.
- Take reduced hours at St. Ed's. Feel lost. South American Lit, cool books
2010
- Take cool Art class and Survey of Africa
- Summer, Meet Julie and Max, hang out kind of regularly for 1 year, infatuated with Julie
- Summer, Pet sitting a little I think
- ACC Spanish
- Go to north Padre, Malaquite park, with Aaron and Ashley, nice time
General:
Directionless wandering
Poetry, sad beauty, filthy habits
Talks with Aaron - Tension, Laziness, Goodwill, Hope
- August, last couple classes at St. Ed's, decide to quit, GPA does not qualify anyway
- October, start to work at Erwin Center
- Get accepted into massage school for $2,000 or so
- December 31st, Move into my first apartment with Tim and Patrick.
2011
- Ashley dates Tim and lives with us most of the time, i feel alittledumbfounded, dumbstruck
- Texas Healing Arts Institute, February to March
- Working at Erwin Center, hating it. Applying to service industry jobs for 3 months?
- Playing games with my brothers, discovering disc golf.
- June 25th, WWOOF at Sunflower River Farm for 3 days, Albuquerque + Four Corners, Alone on a Road Trip, get anxious and go home...
- Love the Books' music!
- July, date Ranisha, confused about feelings, I touch her boobs in bathing suit in Mom's pool at night, we have some good times, I ignore her after a few months
- August to December, Austin Community College, Latin 1 - excelled, Basic Algebra - failed group project, Theater - nice, weird, lazy, boring, Geology - cool, crazy, boring.
- December 18th, 22nd birthday, making out with Andrea, desperate infatuation/attachment
- Geek and Sundry, Coffee Time, Rhett and Link, other general lots of youtube
2012
- January, ACC, Latin 2 - bored, disconnected. Poetry - experimental, weird, exposed. Anthropology, interested, intimidated.
- Continuing to work at Erwin Center, desperate for change.
- Summer, I do not know. Pet sitting!?
- Ashley dumps Tim and moves in with gay Jay sometime this year maybe? I visit her a once in awhile. One time in the pool I ask her when we should get married and I am mostly serious, but she must have thought I was completely joking or at least hoped I was.
- July, I walk home from the Erwin Center, taking hours, worrying Tim, who was going to pick me up. I don't work there again.
- Probably nothing for a long time
- No more school
- November, working for two weeks taking practice tests for testing company Pearson
- Started watching ASMR videos or just discovered it
- Watch Apprentice Eh
2013
- I am waiting.
- March, I work for less than a week at a Pearson test scanning factory. I just leave on Thursday morning and send a email that I quit.
- April, I work for three weeks, the first week mostly training, sorting mail at IRS.
- May, I WWOOF near Smithville at Craig's, fixing his house and doing chores. Meet nice people
- June, family trip to California for Mom's 60th birthday.
- July, Mom starts working at Austin Public Library.
- Weird time in South Padre in a duplex, Mom not there until the end. I finally finish Brothers Karamazov.
- Summer, Aaron stays at the apartment on weekdays taking Greek at UT.
- July, I work for three days doing construction for Aaron's Dad and get over paid.
- I pet sit for Jan and the Mundine's a few times, a few weeks total.
- Applying to jobs.
- Even more nothing.
- Mom pays my bills.
- End of October, I start working at Sprouts in North West Austin.
- December, start volunteering at Pleasant Hill Library.
- I watch Twin Peaks and the Chris Gethard Show
2014
- I just work at Sprouts 40 hours a week and sort of live, not saving any money.
- Continue to volunteer at Pleasant Hill Library
- May, Quit Sprouts, start working at the library.
- July, Aaron went to Vancouver and met a pretty smart girl, Meghan, from Toronto. I see him less than once a month.
- August, three days in Padre at Beachview with Mom, Pat, Bridget, one day with Tim, Chelsea, Asher
- Tim and Chelsea made Sofie, my niece.
- Now it is October... How.
I work at several Libraries, and South East Branch.
- Interview for a permanent Library job 20 hours a week.
we have to leave the apartment and find another place to live I guess.
Living with Mom seems ideal.
Seeing the world seems favorable.
- November 2014, I live at 212 Turtle Creek Boulevard, 14 month lease.
- December, Start working at Cepeda Branch, Austin Public Library, 20 hours a week.
2015
- Fun Times, alone a lot, some hard times.
- Annar Verold invites me to Poetry/fiction reading at Grey Duck Gallery, i meet two people, it's all right.
Of course, lots of stuff happen.
I listen to Doug Loves Movies and Harmontown.
I walk around the Hood a lot.
I watch lot of stuff.
I listen to Music and write Journals a lot.
I post a bunch of stuff to my Face Book.
November, Week of Thanksgiving, Go to Paris with Mom, it's nice {:
2016
- February, move into Mom's house.
- July, Go to Canada, Toronto, Peterborough, Meet Melanie, Go to her house near Keene, it's nice and pretty
I do some work. It's all right. Aaron goes to Buffalo to be near Meghan.
Aaron calls me. Meghan does not want him to live near her. He and I decide to live together in Austin.
I leave Melanie's place early, after 3 days in Canada, I Regret Fully.
I hang out at Mom's house.
- September, Aaron and I get a One Bedroom apartment at Cherry Creek apartments, right behind my mom's workplace, Manchaca Library.
He only stays about a week.
I interview at World Market, get job offer and decline.
I work for One Day at an Amazon Warehouse ( it's all right ) , and quit because I have no car anymore.
- November, We break the lease. I move in with Mom again.
Everything is Whatever.
-December, Aaron starts dating Andee.
2017
- January, I take Algebra and Statistics at Austin Community college.
I meet Andee. She is lovely of course.
I kill time and skip class.
I do no know what I am doing.
I do favors and help Andee and Malakai, her son.
I go to Roy G Guerrero park, walk, listen to podcasts, drive around Austin.
I drop my 2 classes. Lie to Everyone.
- April, I go to Sherwood Forest Faire and meet Andee's brother and parents.
It is good times.
- June, I take Yoga and Physics.
I skip Physics and drop it eventually.
I skip Yoga and almost lose the credit, but go again.
I feel Lost in Eternity and Good Fortune and Love, and Worry.
- June, Aaron and Andee find my Blog and read Crappy stuff I did.
I am really ashamed and sorry and sad.
- August, Mom and I go to Aaron's and Andee's wedding.
I take yoga 2, First Aid, Health Online, US History. I like them a little. i skip Class and Lie to Mom.
Mom and I watch a lot of stuff.
December, I decide to just look for a job.
2018
I read some good stuff that Aaron recommends, very slowly.
A Stroll with William James. First half of I'm Your Man, Cohen bio.
May, Interview for job at Oak Hill, Austin Public Library. Don't get the job. That's okay.
July, Malakai's brithday party, at Aaron's house, goes well.
August, Mom retires. I apply to a few Jobs, that's all for now. I drink too much alcohol.
I want to eat better and exercise and lose my fat gut.
November, work at an Amazon warehouse for 3 days. Then I skip 3 days, hang out in Austin, lie to Mom, tell her I got fired.
December, work at Erwin Center about once a week.
Aaron still really tries to help me. I get to hang out with him and Andee about once a month. That is kind of stressful but really good.
I kill time most of the time. I drink too much alcohol.
I still don't know why I don't force myself to read. Reading needs to be a part of me. It is difficult because it is good.
This Christmas is nicer than most. But I spend more time with my family than I want to.
I want to be on my own for a long time. I want to figure my life out by myself... Yeah...
2021
- Romance, Sexuality, Partnerships -
Fantasies last forever.
I'm mostly strait. A little bisexual.
I've only put my penis in and come in Nikkin's mouth twice. That's all I've done.
Maybe Saylor dry humped me a bit as we made out on my 22nd birthday, December 18th, 2011, almost 10 years ago. I've mostly been too afraid to try anything since.
In 2016 I asked 3 girls out. I only hung out and walked with Clarisa. It was fine. Nothing.
I don't really care.
Let's go do anything.
Later sk8er
Bye bye skier.
Gregory Wredberg, Time Line, as of 2011
Family
May 5 1945 - Dad is born somewhere in Massachusetts: William James Wredberg, youngest of 3, siblings Tootsie and Connie
~1951 - Dad's family moves to Dallas
June 24 1953 - Mom is born in Houston, Texas or nearby: Barbara Gail Milner, oldest of 3, siblings Jan and Doug
1968/69 - Mom is 15 and her mom, Willa Joyce, kills herself by running a car in a garage while her kids are at her sister's. She has to take care of her sibs Her dad and brother and sister? live in Belize for a while, and she lives in California for the summer of 1969. She studied in France for a few weeks and visited London and Italy.
~1970 - Dad and Adele Wallace get married and soon divorce.
~1971 - Mom marries Ken, and they soon divorce.
Mom and Dad work at B Dalton Book Seller in Houston. Dad's manager.
~1975 - Mom and Dad move from Houston, Texas to Austin, Texas, attend University of Texas (UT), and graduate.
October 8 1979 - My brother Christopher Milner Wredberg is born. At age 11 he switches from being called Chris to being called Kit and sticks with Kit.
November 8 1983 - My brother Patrick Alexander Wredberg is born. He is called Pat. A 13 or so when he is mad at Kit and our cousin Luke maybe about preventing him from playing in the backyard and punches through a glass door cutting his inner wrist and making a cool scar that looks like a crop circle.
September 27 1983 - My brother Timothy James Wredberg is born. As a baby, he chews Mom's hair then a blanket. He is called Tim.
December 18 1989 - I, Gregory Douglas Wredberg, am born. It was very cold. It was the afternoon. My Aunt Jan had waited then went back to Oklahoma before I was born.
1992 - Family moves to semi-rural/suburban Bastrop, Texas. Dad still works in Austin. Mom has been home for a long time.
1994~ - Mom and Dad get divorced. Dad moves into an apartment in Austin.
Dad remarries Adele.
~1996 - Mom marries Terry Harris. He moves in with us.
May 1998 - Kit graduates high school. In August, he begins to attend UT, and lives in a dorm then apartments. He graduates from UT 5 or so years later.
November 2001 - Dad dies of lung cancer at Adele's parents' house in Dallas.
May 2002 - Pat graduates high school. In August, he begins to attend UT, and lives in a dorm then apartments. He graduates from UT 6 or so years later.
November 2003 - Terry dies of lung cancer at our home, while my brothers and I spend a weekend at Pat's and Kit's apartment in Austin.
May 2006 - Tim graduates high school. In August, he begins to attend UT. He lives in a student apartment with Patrick. He quits school after about a year and starts working at the IRS.
~~Throughout my childhood, my brothers and I play a lot of video games and Magic: the Gathering card game with each other. Starting when I am about 11, we go to Magic: the Gathering tournaments several times a year.
PersonalFall 2004 or Spring 2005 - I begin a friendship with Ashley Oney; we have a speech class together. We are both very shy and quiet.
February and Spring 2006 - Kim Boike and I date a few times; we are in German together. I like her a lot. I touch her chest over her clothes at night on the road in front of my house and laying on the floor of my brother's room while a movie plays on a TV. He walks in and sees me touching her. We quietly leave. I say to her, I think he saw me fingering your chest. I am sad that summer after she says we will not be a couple.
June 2006 - Tim gets me a job working at Tracy's Drive 'n Grocery part-time, after school.
Mom gets me a 1986 Volvo.
May 2007 - I perform didgeridoo and toaster at a high school talent show alongside my friend Alex Ramirez and the rest of the band, The Steezniles.
2006/2007 - I visit Ashley at her house several times, and we watch movies. We lose touch in our senior year, like I did with most friends. She dates John Moore, who I was someone I had spent time
May 2008 - I graduate from high school.
August 2008 - I begin to attend St. Edward's University. I live in a dorm. I fail all my classes.
November 2008, Thanksiving break - I am invited to a party at my old friend Max's house in the country. There are quite a few people from our high school class. I get there sort of late. I had been to the Renaissance Festival that day. After some people have left, some of us decide to paint each other in the garage. It's sort of a contest. I enjoy being on a team of two girls who I admire. Kelly is one. I see them in underwear. Kristie wear no bra, I see her boobs, and I think it's my first time seeing boobs. We take communal showers, with clothes on. They play games and watch WALL-E. I feel unwell. I try to poop, but I can't. I decide to go home. It's about 5 am. Max expresses concern. I say bye. I am very tired. I almost fall asleep and drive off the road a couple times. It hurts to stay alert. I get home and vomit in a toilet, relieved.
Spring 2009 - Several times I hang out and go out with Nikki Rader who I had met in high school German last year. She is two years younger than me. I took her home and we sit in my car in the parking lot in front of her apartment and make out for a little while. It's the first time I think I have really kissed someone. I am elated. Three times she gives me oral sex. I am obsessed with her. I want to have sex with her. I touch her genitals. I buy condoms. Soon we are not talking to each other. I try to contact her with no result. I was going to take her to an Animal Collective concert, but she wants to go to the Bastrop High School graduation ceremony, so I take her best friend and roommate Nick. He is gay.
I meet Aaron at St. Edward's. We hang out and talk a lot. I talk to him more than anyone else.
Fall 2010 - I take my last few classes at St. Edward's.
October 2010 - I start working about 20 hours a month at the Frank Erwin Events Center and the football stadium at UT.
February 2011 - I attend Texas Healing Arts Institute massage school for about a month and quit.
June 2011 - I drive my Mom's Jeep Liberty to Albuquerque to WWOOF. I leave after two or three days. I just want to go home.
[ i wrote the following today, December 31, 2019 :
my life is out of control
internet and TV and games . . . i am whatever . . . fantasy and myself . . . chaos , Earth . . . Space . . . Time .... i am okay . . . i just drank rum and wine . . . okay. lay ter ]
