dreams are like

what if hell were heaven?

what if everyone who ever exists or who can never exist were my only friend and we shared everything with each other?

i should poo in the next
... i pooed.

do i want you, reader, to read this?

why do i type words, think the words i think . . ?

i did bank and credit card stuff this morn

i just read You, Reader by Major Jackson from a paris review email

i like it more than most things

i think i will post it on fb in a moment

You, the Living is the english title of the swedish title of a movie i saw about ten years ago

momis makin thanks giving foods

pat and bride and lorena and kit are coming here in 4 or 5 hours

i want to drink eggnog and rum and feel good . . . about every thing

later doug and his family are coming here .  they are annoying except natalie is cool .

 it ' s okay  . .  .   .  it  '  ll  be   o k

i want to hear that song that goes - i've loved you for a thousand years ,  a thousand years . . .

i think it is on scott pli-g-im

the end

of to day

tomorrow mom and i plan to see tim and chelsea ,  maybe they will come here

or we will go to their house

 . . .

Who   Is    Never   ?


i have had ~ half a cup of coffee and i have almost cried a couple time today


i looked up plumtree, the song scott pilgrim i've *liked you for a thousand years


mom asked me to vacuum rugs and i just did. i put the 2 extra chairs at the table

           and to leaf blow the porch

she just showered and i took 2 drinks from the big rum bottle . . . cruzan , gold

i feel weird

i wonder how Aaron and Andee are

i had a good dream about them a couple nites ago

hugged her

upset

sorry

out in the open

Clearing Air

clear words ,  good clear intentions

Reconcile

Smile

Facial Hairs

Fun


i think it was ~ 7 30 when i began this

it is 9 26


i should eat a bit

a little croissant


i woke nervous about family interactions

excited by holiday

i am excited because i have four days in a row without as much obligation

just worked 3 days with tim and jesse

work with tim monday and tuesday

jesse said in ~ a week or 2 i can join them on a job that may take ~ a week


i got almost 800 dollars in the past week

it is wierd

i hope i win at least 100 thousand dollars in the lottery, next time i get a ticket, maybe tuesday


it was 9  54

now it is 9 56


i am wearing a blue land's end vest that mom bot but it was too big


i want to pee outside in a minute