aaron stacy

Best Friend versus Therapist. Or Best Friend and Best Therapist are Best Friends, good for me. Two sides of my psyche. I think Aaron knows a lot more than Stacy, and I want to say that he makes a lot more sense. Maybe because he leads the conversations he has with me and I get absorbed in his thoughts and make them my own and there is no friction and all is right. I lead my conversations with Stacy, and I don't know what I am talking about. I get lost in her presence and wanting it to go so well that I don't need any help, maybe the helpful things she says get mixed up with the incomprehensible things I say. Maybe I am being purposely self-deprecating. She wants me to let myself feel my feelings. I want to feel her. I wanted to hug her at the end, but I think she would have rather not. She says Aaron and I get lost in our heads and disconnected from the present moment of feeling our own feelings, and that we try to analyze everything and connect with the outside world so that we do not feel our own feelings or feel at all. Aaron talks about feelings as a way to understand what it means to be himself and to be in his place in life. I am exhausted by analyzing everything in a conclusive way. I will analyze things as long as I feel like it. I like to feel things happen to me. I don't like to have any affect on anything. What I like and what is best generally for all are probably not the same.