On the Train Back to YYZ

 2. At Tonight's Baby Shower

We at Earth and Cosmos resign to this,

Here we all can only evolve and die forever

Aquamarine haze windows , an eyeshot to Lake Ontario

Seated, I fade as in a photograph, 10:20 a.m.

A girl's name beginning in M

She was 25 God damn years old

I rubber-neck at a future-is-now complex multi-use electrical power Station

White like a massive magical sailing ship between me and the sea

Pass by plain glowing thick green-grass meadows and ditches

Take care of his/her clothes.

This may now be taking place

I am changing places , a future me

Cordially I interrupt my train in thought

a sick sweetness in the pit of my stomach , smell of new rain

far but not too far in all directions

I am not failing to go...

Tired long afternoons led inwardly to slow, melting bursts of tears , solace of this Wet Loving Landscape

The suffering meditation

I knew the reflection

I easily remember

Unprovoked meaningless absence   in   unwanted inevitable Nostalgia

   felt it out

You can stay.

Monk and Coltrane and Shadow and Abdul at Carnegie Hall on compact disc

Music For the Gods - The Fahnestock South Sea Expedition: Indonesia Various Artists Bali, Madura & Kangean Island, Indonesia (1941) GAMELAN/ INDONESIAN TRADITIONAL