swelling   thoughts


 forget   my   life                                     forget   my   life

fuck it ,   my  life                                    fuck it ,   my  life


    My Choices           My  Results          My   Conclusions


it just doesn't matter ,    doesn't it  ?


[ on paper ]


       The Christ will fall

our bodies open to Mystery

____________________________

31 - 5 - 2020          14:20

Hi. I've been drinking white wine, Headwaters - Chenin

Blanc, Fall Creek. I've had like 2 classes... glassses.

and a Cayman Jack Marg. And tea. I watched

Your mom's house and Dr. Drew after dark, episode 68.

Now I'm watching 2 Bears 1 Cave; it's okay. Ridiculous.

it is 8 minutes 20 seconds in. I feel like floating

Rocks, Weeds, Algae - is that PluRal? I'm a BuRble

a Planet Sink, a Goat Frog Belly Volcano Cossack

ChuRn Field Gravel Loam Exploding Eyeball Slo mo

6 Pound Pizza, Galactic Steak, Cosmic Meat Ball

, the type of meat ball... Falling head - A Human

     well...    I like Trees.

O.K.   I'll Quit.   I am nervous about Zooming with

       Soil People  tomorrow. Maybe the internet Dies..


I recycle a stout glass bottle, first Step

I Pee sitting down     " My dad is dead "

" My step dad is dead "   " Being dead must be fun "

I don't know what I'm trying to do

I don't know if I'm trying

Sorry... I look like an Antelope
 
      I wish.

Talent Slack.  Talents Lack

The Skill TRee.  I wish SharP Mind

Taking Chance, Getting Practical

under a Rock, earth worm, A 6 by 6 image

Reconscruction... 25 words tell us who

Gets by... how,  why,  now,  eternal

Process,  Progress,  Safe - Hairy - Veiny


Total ,  Toledo ,  Vassal

Polonius ,  Pink Finger ,  Soul of Lite

15:20

You Miss Me Because You Have To

Life is the Sun

Life is in the Sun


I wanna treat you to a spoon

to scoop the meaty flesh hidden

bring your lips to the party

of invisible lost travelers

chart and graphic spiking evidentially

Pool together

to prepay conic forests, light has always begun

Apple said opportunity

.   I give this to you, Wide Eye, slurp up

Instruments delight your dancing micro robe

Shields the faces of the minds that live on

To tell us, who optimize

Walking Past

Consistently waking on time to present

The New Life Awaits

Like photos.

An arrangement of our best selves

for the book, sensitive finger tips

Organ survival, a place to know

to feel pieces and the whole

for Real.

I'm a liquid gold factory

Will you fine me or fire me?

What are you doing?

You're   a   runaway   sea


    Lives   are   pockets .


Thou lower me into Your Holy Ghost Arms

Chalky Pee

whi i should woRRy

going south To Powder

poco de Rana

I knew a female astronaut

we sailed the sky for 50 days strait

She lived and breathed on the center point of my Mind

and i made her a candy cake . . . .


I have a friend, who was and knew a Girl

She makes me be Their Friends constantly


A Rowing Boat makes our minds do vehement things

A block of blue fit the perfect Housing for our Livable Technologies


We strove to preserve the Notion that we all need to die.

Meghan's Being washed off a waterfall

Fall Away Falls

My head rolls back

My eyes go to space

She says, I wish you'd not leave this soon

                  I will come back to see when you're ready, or not


You make no differences

Differences make your mind up


Steadiness Unfeld


Donation of Nature

I don't know what to do.

Let's go back.

Let's keep going back.


Bil Baird, Directions to Get Lost is really nice.

So is Earbiscuits . . . Therapy.

I was just sensing that I had a loss

i was just reading some of bill baird's little book, ' i've got these problems '


I need ti

i need to live aloen

i need to try to kil myself

and   Fail           [ not true ,  i'm not going to , i hope you don't worry too much ]


You tried to kill yourself in a very irresponsible way


it is this end


this is your friday birthday ,  a celebration but it goes away  to   no  where

You   know   where  how   and why

but you sell the  tite  wasted  toy  and  foolish   garment    and  lost   yoke   for a  cat  who   knows   porpoises   that   sing   the legends  of   the  Fall  of  Human  Kindness .

.   .   .

I  bleed  cofee.  I want a loaf of Good cheese

there are nine of us left . No, wait. There are one.

My dog ran a wide wild circle

We wait another 15 or 20 minutes


I soak the whiteness of death  with  my Self ,  it leaves loves leaks Promises


Now is Perfect

Good Bye

God are the God

Who God your God

with the God God

God God God . . .


What are these people doing? What do they think they're doing? What do they do they're thinking?


The End

On brand

On brain


Brand power

Brain power


Raisin   Brain

Drink Sugar . . . Eat Wheat

Music Festival of my name

Music fest in my name



Gorillaz

Reggie Watts

Enya

Grand Master Flash and the Furious Five   [ or Grand Buffet ]

of Montreal

Rhett and Link

Yo La Tengo


Dan Deacon
Ono, Yoko
Unknown Mortal Orchestra
George Harrison
Land of Talk  [ or Laurie Anderson ,  or Lennon ]
Arcade Fire
Sun Kil Moon

Why?

Rilo Kiley

Ella Fitzgerald

Deerhoof   [ or David Bowie ]

Boats   [ but Blackaliscious , Bill Baird and Bill Callahan ]

Elvis Perkins

Regina Spektor

Grizzly Bear

" Neighborhood #1 (Tunnels) " , Redux

do doo ,  do doo dooo dooo

Hey... there's no one else around

in my Neighborhood

All the colours, sleeping in my head

As the day grows dim

We forgot all the names that we used to know

We tried to name our babies

in our parents' bedrooms

and the bedrooms of our friends

then we think of our parents

Whatever happened to them .


Our Skin gets Thicker from Livin' out in the Snow

and I'll build a Tunnel from mine to your Window


The End

Out

Good Enough to Know, Older Greg Blog

Friday, May 22, 2020

I know all we do will soon*

Be undone by starfire,

Not the Teen Titan, just the energy and entropy of the cosmos.

I wanna do all i can for the healths of our eternal minds

... The end

I like to know that there is nothing to do

That can be done

To be

I love to feel

That better is possible

But I can never know

. . . .    sam takes good care of Her faces

Toetips to Scalps to Fingertips

We Ride the Ocean. Crest and Trough.

Bodies fall from heaven. Her name was Fern. She fell on my sleeping. We woke. 

Her black hair grows wildly all around. 

Her cloud-like flesh beams light through the room. My house disappears and we begin among the vibrant purple-splashed ether, tumbling and succumbing.

Eternally we arrive.

Then we clean up as the earth returns to us.

Fern freshens herself in the bathroom. I dip in the river, clean enough. I cook some buttery mushrooms.

We laugh about some Perfection.

We Come and   Go   Light   Lee .  .   .    the end.

A few days ago i became obsessed with Arabelle Raphael... i want to type sexual fiction, because i feel horny, and i want to quit porn, i just think of bodies and pleasure too much, so here i go, maybe i'll be done soon

Love's Problem and Solution

I do not care if I love you or not .

                      You care if you love any one .

I care if any one loves me .


The End

Look at the Sun

Look at the Sun

Even when everything is dark

Close your eyes and think up a spark.

Your vision will become

a voice for everyone.

Look at the sun.

Look at the Sun


[ alternatative :  Your voice will become
                         
                              Vision for everyone.

They're Called Commitments.

This Ecological Research

19 - 5 - 2020

free write

                  Going Canada, I am a cold colder than

St. Louis on Fire, BlueNess, He write a fake

Book, Lame Jesus justice. I wait the sun out

sides of split grape gum. Little bark light

strip of wood on the sun rotation balls and

Limp suck for a bottle on trees on time
                    ,
on being  - , -  a word for purpose, to bring Lite

De lite   In sight   Wonder  Pure Feeling   A Bone

A Plan for 17 hours, A Work day, A Getting

Done, A Blue Print, A good job. He speaks

to Get a Point. Improve your Life, Water for

kids under 15 years Old. And invalid "Adults"

over 45... or 30... or Young Americans All

Over earth, Dying Pleasure Disease Desire.

I walk 2.61782... M.P.H. to the Wooden Vert

I wait 16.8.1.1274 hours on Venus and

Extract the Tone of Meaning to Relieve

Plan to Exorcise Pain, Exercise the Quiet Leaf Inside.

Touring Open Mic Poet                   2


Artifact Enchantment Creature - God

When you cast TOMP, search your library for a land and put it into your hand.

When TOMP enters the battlefield, draw a card.

When TOMP attacks or blocks, sacrifice him at the end of combat.

When TOMP dies, exile him and a card from your hand.                          0/1

Technical Writing

Descriptions, for instance of wind mills, generators and primitive stone scraper
Feasibility Reports like those of Voice Recognition Software, UPS systems.
Progress reports. For example, Software development, database development
Application Letters such as Technical writer internee, Product Manager, Quality Assurance Manager
Complaint Letters. For example, Cosmetic problems, television problems, microwave problems
Instructions. For example, how to operate a Minolta Freedom 3 Camera, how to install windows XP, Using WS_FTP Pro for Windows etc
Proposals such as academic proposals, research proposals, corporate standard manuals.
Resumes. For example, Maintenance technician for high-tech systems, Project Manager, Technical Writer, LAN system administrator.

Monday Morning Mailbox Flowers

An Illuminated Rainbow Couplet

27 letters

This Time is 7:36

May 18th

I am 18 years old

The letters of my names are g, r, e, o, y, d, u, l, a, s, w and b.


the genes of my cells

the sperm and egg of my parents

i shall be a botanist

i drive to a location for a reasonable reason

i do another person a favor

i give an recieve gratitude and support

humanity in going to be good now



all good reason and meaning

the solution of history

the perfection of eternity

the Will and Mind of God


Catholicism, the Church, Communion, Communication, Conversation, the Mystical Body

Scrutenanny

Your guess is as good as mine is bad

I guess either we are all irrelevant either way or we are all relevant even if we are far off or even far on

Squeamish    Wash    Room


      Squamish Plants

      a   YouTube  video


Sleeping in a castle

Water felt grown caldera water

Pulsating rhyme circle centers

Brush fire Taco Foot Loose caravan

Expectorating a New Mind for

A colony of citizens of united causes

Like Doing Charity Work

Never Leaving

Except for the best

Becoming Fact

Always You and We

The End of Now

My favourite movies and series

1. An Elephant Sitting Still
2. Silence
3. Groundhog Day
4. Paterson
5. The Life Aquatic with Steve Zissou [Rushmore , Tenenbaums and others]
6. Youth
7. Wonderboys
8. Rebel Without a Cause
9. At Eternity's Gate
10. The Station Agent
11. Lost in Translation
12. Once
13. About Schmidt [practically a tie with most Paynes]
14. The Dead Don't Die [and most of Jarmusch]
15. Aki Kaurismaki's
16. Office Space
17. The Great Dictator, city lights, modern times 
18. Captain Fantastic
19. Me and You and Everyone We Know
20. Kajilluonaire
21. Only Yesterday
22. Whisper of the Heart
23. Silence
24. The Tale of Princess Kaguya
25. 2001: a Space Odyssey
26. The Big Lebowski... i dunno, maybe it was.... Raising Arizona 
27. Scott Pilgrim versus the "Girl"
28. The Baxter
29. Tommyboy
30. Love Actually
31. Fire Walk with Me, and most of Lynch 
32. Terry Gilliam's best
33. MST3K the Movie, werewolf, timechasers et cetera
34. Barton Fink
35. Nacho Libre
36. Orange County
37. My Life Without Me
38. Mind the Gap
39. A Love Song
40. Women Talking
41. Powwow Highway
42. Capernaum
43. Stellet Licht
44. Merry Christmas, Charlie Brown

Infinity = Hal Hartley  . . .

Series

1. Rectify
2. Mum
3. 30 Rock
4. The Office (nbc)
5. The Office bbc
6. Extras
7. After Life
8. Parks and Recreation
9. Better Call Saul
10. Breaking Bad [sort of, i guess]
11. Kids in the Hall
12. King of the Hill
13. Seinfeld
14. Simpsons ( i stopped watching in the early 2000s )
15. Fooly Cooly ( I still wanna see the reboot) 
16. Futurama ( tim and i still wanna see the last couple seasons )
17. Spaced
18. The Mighty Boosh
19. Home Movies
20. Portlandia
21. Tim and Eric Awesome Show, Great Job!
22. Baskets
23. Detectorists
24. Twin Peaks
25. Peep Show
26. 800 Words
27. The   Good    Place
28. Craith
29. Keeping Faith
30. Shetland
31. Bron and The Tunnel
32. Louie
33. Stranger Things
34. Blood
35. Capital
36. My Life Is Murder
37. Mystery Road
38. The Brokenwood Mysteries
39. The Plot Against America
40. Longmire
41. Atlanta
42. Reservation Dogs
43. Resident Alien
44. Rebekah Martinson
45. Imma Tatarrani
46. Yellowjackets
47. Station Eleven
48. Painting with John
49. The Tourist
50. The Good Lord Bird
51. Shin Chan

C B S    Sunday    Morning

Joe Pera Talks with You 

Over the Garden Wall

Brady 24, age gender nationality

Stands on the front yard looking up

Tree branches. Skies

     I put a jar outside for a rabbit and squirrel

Dull makes me happy

          There is a storm


The end


                  For a squirrel and rabbit

I type this to know myself better, open a void of my soul, unfold a packet of my unconscious subconscious conscience that needs fuel to burn the life I should live if the eternal truth of love and humanity and creation and possibility is to be Known and Taught and Learned and Reaching the Soul of Souls and the Purpose of Meaning and the meaning of purpose,
the Why
the Who
the What
Now
Yes
We
dispatches from elsewhere
take care of frogs
enough milk
enough babies
A bread
A gut biome
a home
a book
a waking
a sleep
a star, a planet
A Plan
A Future
A memory
a thesis
an Actualization

You see any People

Standin on my head.


Water moles

Rolled beef

So Cal Murder Misery


We saw Life Is Sweet last night. It's pretty weird. I like the characters mostly. It's kinda fun and disturbing. Especially Nicola. I saw some of myself in her. There are parts i really like. Natalie is good overall

Tim's Table Top Role Playing Game . - . - TTRPG

                -  Hero Cards


- Novoto Tilway, F, Dark Elf Shaman

    3 in.    1 st.   1 ag.

    Starting weapon:  Staff - 2 dice

    Once a turn, prevent damage dealt by an enemy's next attack, and it deals that damage to itself.


- Magdalena Marchase, F, Human Rogue

    1 in.   1 st.    3 ag.

      Starting weapon:       Dagger  -  2 dice

    Flee combat without rolling.
 
    When drawing treasure, look at the next card and may swap it for a drawn card.


- Aden Kudark, M, Human Barbarian

    0 in.   4 st.   1 ag.

      Starting weapon:      Hammer - 4 dice

    Once a turn, lose half of health rounded up to deal double damage this combat.


- Simifer Nibman, M, Halfling Cleric

   3 int.    0 st.    2 ag.

      Starting weapon:       Morningstar - 2 dice

   Once a turn, fully restore a hero's health.


- Bug Juj-Quetz, M, Lizardman Wizard

    4 in.   0 st.   1 ag.

      Starting weapon:      Skeleton Arm - 1 di

    The next magic attack by an enemy this turn has no effect, and Bug's next magic attack this turn deals double and cannot be prevented.


- Hilox Doavepia, F, Dwarf Palladin

   2 in.   3 st.   0 ag.

     Starting weapon:     Longsword - 3 dice

   Target hero gains 1 health for each of Hilox's attack successes minus enemy's defense successes.


- Mister Umbiculus, M, Vampire Alchemist

    3 in.   1 st.   1 ag.

       Starting weapon:    Bombs, Flares, Flashbangs, something like that  ... 1 di ,  plus blinding and deafening enemies

   As an action, discard a treasure, deal 1 damage
        or
   draw a treasure from the discard pile, lose 1 health.


- Vivian Verdew, F, Wood Elf Druid

    2 in.   2 st.   1 ag.

     Starting weapon:  Bow and Arrows - 2 dice  

                      Close Range:  Fists - 1 di

    Roll extra di for ranged attacks.

    As an action, summon animal spirit with Vivian's atk. def. and health that attacks and defends and takes damage instead of Vivian this combat.