Masturbation Journal 14 [y.o.]

                           I waited almost 13 days then I whacked off 3 times in 12 hours. I think the contemplative sound of Cat Power's Sea of Love made me want to write this. Aaaron, and Hemingwaay, aand being comfortable made me want, and still make me, to write [type] standing up. I stood up to work most of last night. I think the work itself, or maybe it's just me, makes me tense up neck and shoulders.My legs get slightly weary but it feels better than having sore butt, back, neck from sitting too much, alot may be sycological of me thinking that standing is better for me, like the way some vegetables taste better to me because i think they are healthy. I was going to make salad last night, but I pussyfucked out. I get to live in bastrop for half of next week while mom is a library conference in fort worth. I'm listening to my bloody valentine, so gazey, ambient,  subconcious. I had a really crappy dream of being at home with domino and brothers and domino acted sick and crawled into a big fire in the fire place and layed down on a log, he didnt react to the fire at all and just acted sleepy, I thought he needed to die and he knew it, but the fire burned him but didnt kill him, he was out later i think we took him out because he didnt die, tim held him and he was very small and had charred fur and was sort of orange, maybe it was buddy.
                         I read about Boston, because dodger had mentioned something happened in boston. A bunch of people blew up. I want to say something evil about it because I shouldnt. I am slightly concerned about aaron. I know he sympathizes with the victims and the loved ones, because he is better and smarter than me. If those runners werent such gay retards maybe theyd still be unblown up. I make myself want to laugh shortly and cry forever. Then I laugh again. I listen to Weezer in the garage. My rapper name is G-RiffRaff. It's beautiful. Oh all the sudden I notice I'm sitting on a stool and I didnt notice me sitting down and that it goes against wanting to stand, but backless stool is better than backed chair or couch.I need to do stretches. After this temp job is over I never want to do office work again.I want to play DnD again with more sets and players.I made coffee with french vanilla creamer instead of milk because we out of milk, it's espresso. The Gruffalo's Child was very comforting, even when I had to pee real bad. I cannot masturbate again until May. "Rejoicing in the Hands" {{{{{{::::::: How to Be Happy!>>?<@!<>!@<!<#!@><#

Call them all at the end. She was at her locker I got off work I looked at her tried to smile, she drank gatorade i think it was green