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Hi, Internet Journal!

It's a wonderful Wednesday! I have not done much today. I made a lot of comments on facebook. That was pretty lame and mildly amusing. I masturbated to Sasha Grey. I should not type that, because I should not have done that. I listen to cool songs on gooveShrark! Modest Mousy stuff and Joanna Newsomy stuff! Page France, Ugly Cassanova, Okkervil River, The Mountain Goats, Levek, Jason Anderson, Lower Dens.
I wrote mein dreams down. Some scary, some ordinary. I play tested my Worldfire deck a lot and changed some cards.
Yesterday, mother came and took us to see Dark Knight Rises. I like the way Bane talks. In his speech on TV it looked like he was going cross-eyed. At one point I wanted to read all about the guy who killed those people at the premier. I didn't really like much about the movie. We drove back to the apartment, and Tim went with us to play tennis. Mom and Tim won 6 games to 4 against Pat and me. We went to Sonic and Double Daves. We went back home, ate, and watched Breaking Bad. I drank almost an entire large Root Beer float, and my stomach hurt later.
If Aaron sees her, asks her, then texts me, I will find out if Paige will allow me to go with her and Aaron to Big Bend next week. I am excited to be close to her for three days. She is exceptionally attractive. I hope that somehow we will touch or kiss... but that is a far off fantasy I am quite sure.
Aaron seems to plan not to go to the beach this summer, and I asked Ashley if the two of us can go. She seems to like the idea. I want to be able to touch and hold her in the tent. I don't know why, but kissing her does not seem possible. I think she will respect her relationship with Ruben when we are alone, but I don't want her to think that that means she and I cannot be intimate while we are on a trip while she has some boyfriend who is not there. That was an ill-constructed sentence. I want to be attractive and interesting to someone who I want to impress, who I think is attractive and interesting. Namely, Ashley or Paige.
I am not sure if my beard is disgusting or ridiculous or if it is actually nice or something.
The picnic with Julie, Aaron, and Peter on Sunday afternoon went well. We walked to the graffiti place. It was hot. Julie and Peter did not deal with the heat well. I suppose Julie was tired from being active all day.
I got to touch her arm a little. Weird.
It seems things are always falling short of their potential, especially conversations, when Aaron is around, because it seems he always tries to make moments more meaningful, partly by talking in a meaningful way, but the people around him, especially me, think that it's enough just being together and living comfortably where ever we are... I speak only for myself.
It's Thursday! It's stupid to be a slave to my desires. I am addicted to Good Mythical Morning.
Not sure what to do.. Okay, I gotta go!!!!!!!
Bye, Lover!
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